Get One And Friggin’ Pass

September 17th, 2007 by allyevejeff

Do you know why its so hard to be in love after a broken heart? its
because you no longer know how much to make the next one special cause
you made the last one so special thinking he’s your last..


A man realized he wanted his love back but hte girl said "NO". The
man cried to God and asked.."If its meant to be why did i lose her?"
God replied.."my chil.. you didn’t lose her.. You let her go.."


I hope someday you would remember me as the girl who always smile
even when her heart is broken and the one who always brighten up your
say even if she couldn’t brighten up her own..


Sometimes, we desperately want to be with someone that in the end
we ask ourselves,"was i truly in love with him or did i merely want to
be inlove with him?"


Have you ever wondered why sometimes looking at your crush makes
you hurt inside rather than making u happy? Coz u knew it’ll always be
that way — you looking and him not knowing….


Sorry for the times I’ve let you down, sorry if I’m not there if
you need me, sorry for the times I’ve turned my back on you…I’m
sorry…But do you really need me to be there or I’m just pushing
myself to you?


I know that you’re not mine, but my heart says that I’m yours…I
can’t even hold you this time and tell you how much I love you
honey…but you know I really do love you…so much…hoping right time
will come for us to be together…so I can say again this words to
you…"I love you, hon."


think twice before leaving your space in someone’s heart coz it’s
painful that in the end you’ll realize how you miss filling that space
and decide to go back only to know that someone had taken your place.


what if you don’t believe in love? What if you met that person who
just taught you how? What if you can’t promise anything but was just
willing to give? What if you fall for him , yet he was just meant to
teach?


if you told me you loved me, I could deal with that. If you told
me you were walking away, I could deal with that. But, I cannot deal if
you tell me you love me but you are walking away.


What did you mean when you said that you love me? Is this how you
love someone? You make them fall for you then leave them behind? If
that’s how you do it, I must say… Youve done quite well


Love and letting go is found on the reason why you let go. if u
let go coz youre hurt, then thats not love, thats your act against
self-pity. love is when you let go coz you want the person to be happy
with someone else…


I’m sorry to have made you cry. and I’m even more sorry because
even though you’re crying, I can’t feel the pain I caused you. I’m
sorry I can’t even feel anymore … and I don’t know how to say goodbye
because I know you’ll think that I did not mean it … more so when I
first said I love you


I have said a hundred thinking-of-yous. I have said a thousand
yous-miss-yous. I have said a million yous-love-yousbut nothing
prepared me with that one goodbye …


what if it’s true, that am not capable of love at all? that though
I am with someone now, the time will come when he’ll realize that we’re
just not meant to be….that, I am a girl undeserving of his
devotion…and that I am a girl that will not be satisfied with
reality…


how often do I get hurt? everyday. not because you refuse to look
into my eyes, not because we had a fight. I get hurt every time he
refuses to look into your eyes and seeing you with so much pain. and I
mourn for each moment I could have spent with you


I know as long as you are happy, I can get through this. But it
still kills me to see you with her. Not because she is perfect for you,
not because she makes you smile, not because she is what you need, but
because I know that she deserves you more than I do. And that pain is
indescribable.



people say that iv loved you my best. they say that my best was more than enough
that
I could have offered and given you…I proved to the world that how
much I really do..the only thing is…I failed to prove it to you


I’m holding the thought that you’re not mine…I’m gonna look you
in the eye, smile and say: "You’re not mine…" Then I’d walk
away…turn around at the last second and say "But I wish you were…"


we both know that the 2 of us will never be together again coz
loving u will lead 2 an end…. I tried 2 4get u but I just can’t
..when will you come back and say iloveu again???


sorry if I didn’t tell you that I’m getting married soon. please
don’t tell anyone and don’t bother to bring any gifts…just be there
so you can see me crying cause its not you I’m marrying


Loving u used to be my greatest fear.. and I was right, it hurts.
but thanks anyway.. u taught me what love really is, and now I know..
it’s not u.


f ever u found urself nluv w/ sm1 else,jz think of me 4 d last tym
den 4gt me. f ever u found urself nluv w/ sm1 u admire,jz make sure dat
person luvs u more than I did…


it took me years to forget you… and thank God I did… I just
don’t understand y in a snap I fell for u once more… and now, I guess
there’s only one thing left for me to do … and that’s to start
counting years agen of forgetting you


come to me before you say goodbye, hold me close before I start to
cry, I’ll miss you more than you can ever know and all I ask is a love
from you before I let you go….


I waited for you for so long, but you never really cared…I
promised myself I could wait forever…you took me for granted, I
decided to move on…then u realized u luv me, but I was gone.


I’m sure U don’t have any idea what I’m going through. How hard is
it to let someone go. How painful it must be to know that as right as
you two are for each other, it doesn’t mean you’re right for each other
now.


I am tired of just calling you my best friend. tired of hooking
you up with my friends and wishing it was me. . so I am asking you now
to look at me. not as a friend, not as a sister, but as a girl. just a
girl.


the look in your eyes tells me more than I need to know. it tells
me that you do not feel the same about me as I do you. and you break my
heart without saying a word.


No more crying, I cant cry anymore. don’t take my hand this time.
just go please, and don’t look back because I know if you did, I would
come running back to you


I made the mistake of choosing not to be with you and now I have
to live with the fact that you moved on and I broke my own heart.


I loved you, its not that I fell out of love with you, because
that would be impossible, I just couldn’t handle the heartache
anymore…its not that I don’t love you, its that I cant.


I miss you, and I want things back to how they used to be. I need
your friendship more then ever. I need you in my life again. Tell me
what it is that went wrong, and I’ll do what it takes to fix it in a
second if it means having you by my side again


Slowly you feel me slipping away form you not because I realized
that I dont love you but that Im in a place where Im not supposed to
stay. Slowly Ill be gone but did you ever know I was there?


As a ill girl I blivd n wands, fairies, fairytales, den u came
& I believed n prince charming, but u made it hard 2 bliv n happy
ever after… so I decided 2 liv, not coz I don’t luv u, but bcoz ill
girls grow up 2.


my angel told me, 2 prove my love 4u, I shudnt say it, I shud show
it. den I told her, "I already did.." she ask me how. I answered wid
tirs.."I LET HIM GO…"


a guy was so sad cz he knew dt d girl he loved didn’t luv him
back. yrs l8r,he saw d girl caryn her son. he asked: "wats his name?"
she smiled and sed, "same as urs.."


u know why it’s hard 2be inluv again after a broken heart? it’s
coz u no longer know how 2 make the next 1 special coz you made the
first 1 so special, u gave him your heart thinking he’ll be your last..


sometimes I think if I made the right decision 2 let u go, I try 2
justify it by thinking that im betr off alone but den I c sumthn dat
reminds me f w hpi I was, its impossible 2 4get u but I must!


i hav luved u b4, i luved u now n i wil luv u til d end..so y dnt
u do d sme tin? s it bcoz of her? Coz u luved her b4, u luved her now n
u wil luved her til 4evr? = (



why its hard to let go of someone which not rily yours, but its easy to
hold on to the thought of knowing dat hes not yours…why its hard to
say gudbye to someone which not belong 2u and yet so easy to say i love
you again n again….why its easy to accept the pain of knowing that he
will not be yours forever than the pain of losing him……..



while walking down d street, i heard an old lady say "ive been inluv
wit the same man for almost 50 yrs, i was touched bt den she
whispered.."i wish he knew" =(



u think il cry? u think il breakdown? damn ur wrong! i knew all ur
games before i just played along. if u think im stupid, yup ur ryt. i
fall 4 a player wit his game i cudnt fyt!



sad: der was dis gurl hus so inluv wit dis guy bt nver had d courage to
tell him. after years of nt seein each other.. she saw d guy’s
bestfrnd.. GIRL: "how is he?"..BESTFRND: "he just got over u" =’(



wish i cn tell u iluvu jst 2 let u know i care, jst 2 let u know il
oweiz b der. iluvusomch.. i guess dats y it hurts 2 c, hw much iluv u
& sigh.. its not me..



perhaps d saddest bt most lovable thng dt cud happen 2 you is wen ur
talking 2 ur ex a day b4 his wedding & he tells u.. "dis cud hav
been us"



y is it easy 2 fall inluv n yet so hard 2 be luvd back? y shud i fil
such if destiny permits me not? y do i hav to fall if its u i cnt hav?
y is der a "you" in "me" bt nver a "me" in "you"?



a stolen glance, he lukd dis way.. must be my chance, must be my day.
his eyes a gentle gaze.. he spoke d words so soft & true.. "tell ur
frnd i luv her, wil u?"



u’r alredy taken, u ask m e how i feel, i said it doesnt matr, u said
it does. we’ve been on,u mke me luv u evn more, bt after a while u told
me evrythng about d reality, i undrstand and i just figured out.." IS
IT THE NICESY WAY OF SAYING GOOD BYE & BREAKING MY HEART?"



I loved you and I did care, you claimed you loved me but was never
there. now I forgot you and you remain the past, I hate you and
everything about you, I regret. Now my mind is set…so dream on coz my
love for you has gone.



This night will be the last night I’ll be wishing for you, the last
night I shall cry, and the last time I shall hurt myself. Someday if I
see you, I’ll just whisper "I loved you too much…that’s enough"



I say I hate you but I don’t, I try to hurt you but I can’t, it’s hard
to hate someone who has been the best thing that has ever happened to
them.



You said you don’t love me…did you ask how I feel? why didn’t you say
earlier..why must you say it when I feel that I had everything in the
world…when I just lose them within a few seconds…why must you be so
cruel…did you understand my feelings?



I never meant to hurt you, it’s something I know was wrong. I still
care for you, I really do.. but you’ll never know since we haven’t
talked for so long.



How could you say you care, then leave out standing there, so cruel and
so cold. took away the hand of man I used to hold, said you promised no
more pain, then pain is all I gain.



I cried today…not because I missed you, or even I wanted you. but because I realized, I’m gonna be alright without you.



Why do you keep avoiding me, am I one of the persons you really hate?
you don’t have to show me that you don’t care…don’t worry I’ll just
go.



I love you so much that you are always in my head. The sad part is, tonight I know you are probably in someone else’s bed.



You aren’t worth my tears if you can ever make me cry, you aren’t worth
trusting if all you do is lie, you aren’t worth loving if you’re gonna
break my heart…so why am I trying to be with you when we are better
off apart.



Why did I waste my precious time on something not so true…Why did I
waste my time on someone like you…I’ll never take you back…Why
would I want something like that…I wasted my time on you…Thank God
it’s just a memory of the past.



This time it’s over, I’m keeping my heart, I’m gonna be strong and not
fall apart. It will get better, I’ll no longer cry…in a couple of
weeks, I don’t Want to die…I don’t wanna go back. I’ll be able to
sleep, it won’t hurt so bad, and it won’t feel so deep.



Look what you’ve done to me, I can’t stop this tears from falling from
my eyes. How can I love somebody else if I can’t love myself enough to
know when it’s time, time to let go…I can’t hide the way I feel
inside, I don’t know why, but everyday, I wanna cry.



When you fall in love you are happy, until he breaks your heart, he is
all you think about but he acts as if he doesn’t know you anymore. How
could he have done this far after all you’ve been through.



I’m sorry if I’ve walked out again. I’m sorry if I’ve left you hanging
again. It’s just that I’m so scared that if I don’t walk away and
leave, I’ll be loving you too much for nothing.



I tried to forget that I’ve loved you before, but you let me fall in
love with you again and again. Don’t make me feel I’m special to you
when all along you’re just using me to forget the person who hurt you
before.



I didn’t want to let you go, I didn’t want our love to end, I didn’t
want you to find someone new. Coz I knew in my heart would be too hurt
to mend. But I did it, I let you go. I let go of all your lies and
broken promises, I finally learned how to say goodbye.



I tried to fool myself into settling for a relationship…now I’m left
alone…I love you and I will do anything to have you…I wish I could
tell you this…But it’s too late and you’re gone.



I fell in love with a boy and he fell in love with me. So I ask myself one question….why aren’t we together?



Ask me if I care for you, I’m gonna say "I really do"…ask me if I
miss you, I’ll say "yah, I do"…but if you ask me if I need you, I
won’t answer…instead, I will ask you "would you care to need me too?"



Someday you’ll find the one you’re looking for, one who would love you
even more…someday, you’ll find the one you’re destined to be, and
I’ll be left here wondering…why that person isn’t me…



I can hurt myself just for you, I can forget myself just for you,
that’s how much I love you and care for you. I just wonder how much
more love and care in case you were mine.



People say, if you love someone, let them go, if they come back, they
will be yours, if they never come, they were never yours to be
with…You let me go and now I’m back to you, so why are you with
another girl?



I was hurt and heartbroken, you came into my life and helped me through
all the pain, he had put me through. And yet, now I find myself back at
the beginning of where I had been. So tell me, how do I get over you?



How come you have enough time to go out and make other people fall in
love with you, but you don’t have enough time to pay attention to the
one who already does.



This past few days, I started to miss you, I have this feeling and I
don’t know how to deal with it then I realized it’s love, I know I
can’t let this grow, coz we’re friends….yeah…we’re just friends…



Isn’t it unfair you told me you’d always be there, you told me you’d
love me forever. But now, there you are, having it your way, leaving me
alone. But here I am loving you…I just can’t let you go.



It hurts to let go of someone for a reason you can’t explain. But it
would hurt even more if one day, you cross paths again and you realized
you’re still in love with that person, wishing you hadn’t give up.



It’s really sad when you finally found the person you wanna be with for
the rest of your life, but still, that person isn’t contented with what
you are giving and leaves you all alone…and you…still there,
wondering what went wrong.



Why it’s hard to let go of someone who’s not really yours, but it’s
easy to hold on to the thought of knowing that he’s not yours…why
it’s hard to say goodbye to someone who do not belong to you and yet so
easy to say I love you again and again…why it’s easy to accept the
pain of knowing that he’ll not be yours forever than the pain of losing
him.



Someday you’ll cry for me like I cried for you…Someday you’ll miss me
like I missed you…Someday you’ll need me like I needed you. Someday
you’ll love me, but I won’t love you!



My friend have asked me why I still love you and I’ve answered with a
quiet smile not because I don’t have an answer but because she would
never understand.



It’s selfish to think that you have to make yourself happy though you
know you’re hurting someone. I always think that I was wrong when all I
did was to set you free…Still selfish me?



I hope that time would come for you to realize that once in your life,
I was there loving you and take care of you…and now I will leave
you…not because I don’t love you anymore…But because to give you
space and to think, if what do you wanted to do.



You thought I’m happy right now…you thought I’m enjoying my life
right now…You thought I’m happy with the person I have right
now…But did you ever thought that my if was happier the time you were
there?



You might say I was the first to let go between us…I said goodbye and
you let me go just like that…when all I ever wanted was for you to
come after me and say "Baby, please stay"…but you never did.



When you’re looking for the right person, you tend to hurt others ‘coz
you keep on ignoring them. And you’re not aware that the right person
for you is talking to you secretly saying maybe you’re the right person
for me…but for you, I’m not.



I asked you "are you happy without me?" You told me "not actually happy
but much better without you" my tears slowly fell when you said that,
coz I just realized you haven’t really needed me. 



I never really wanted to let go of you but you wanted to be free, I
wanted to stay but you wanted me to go, I never gave up until you told
me that all the time I was loving you… WERE WISHING ME GONE.


When you love someone, you have to fight for him. Thats why Im
willing to fight for you. To make you realize how much I love you but
when I look into your eyes whenever shes around, I know I lost even
before the fight began.


I dont want to see you anymore, I dont want to talk to
you anymore, I dont want to be with you anymore cause when I do, Ill
only get hurt knowing youll never feel the way I do.


I know Ill never have you again, so should I try? I know you will
never care, so why do I cry? Im going to forget you, I tell myself a
lie, cause Ill always have a part of you till the day I die.


I always call and whisper your name, even though Im so tired of
your stupid game. When I need you, are you still there? And when Im
weak, do you even care? Im shouting I love you, cant you even hear? Are
you even aware Im here?


After all the trials weve encountered, I learned how to be strong
and face it with your help, I learned how to be patient and be
understanding. But above all these, still I know how to get hurt by
someone I loved most.


I know I shouldnt care or wonder how you are, but I cant hide the
pain inside my broken heart. Im fighting back emotions Ive never fought
before, cause Im not supposed to love you anymore.


I fell in love so many times, but love never gave me a chance to
know how it feels to be loved back by the person I loved so much.


I was beside you last night. I cant explain what I felt because
finally, my dream came true. You stared at me for the first time, when
suddenly a tear fell from your eyes, then you said, Im sorry, but I
dont love you anymore.


Im in love with someone who doesnt love me in return. Im doing
everything I could but he still doesnt love me. Now, I still dont know
what to do. Think Im a fool? For you, YES, but for me, NO, because Im
truly in love with you.


If you only knew how much I wanted to hold your hand and make you
stay. If you only know how much I cried when you went away. If you only
felt the pain I feel, then maybe you couldve felt the love I hid.

Its so hard to close your eyes when all you can see are the things that
hurt you. So hard to close your lips when you want to shout out the
pain you feel and so hard to see someone you love loving someone else.


It hurts telling myself I miss him. I feel great pain knowing I
can never have him. In my heart, I hope hed stay and never go away. I
love him and I always will but inside I cry saying I WISH HE KNEW.


I care for you and I know you know. Thats why I cant understand
why you have to hurt me the way you do. Id like to ask you to explain
but I know you dont want to, so Ill just be forever guessing what I
mean to you.

Sometimes I wonder if well ever get back together. Then I realize that
well never truly be over. In a way it hasnt changed and in others, it
has. Its not that we arent meant for each other. I think were just not
ready for forever.


A man realized he wanted his love back. The girl said, no, the man
cried to God, If it was meant to be, why did I lose her? God replied,
You didnt lose her, you let her go.


It hurts to love in vain; hurts even more that the one we love is
loving someone else but what hurts most is finding out that the reason
hes loving someone else is cause you never gave him the chance to love
you.

One day, Id make you mine. One day, youd say Im fine. One day, youd
realize that love is right before your eyes. One day when things are
true. One day its you and mebut too bad you make it seem that one day,
is just a dream.

He looked me deeply in the eyes. He lied and said, I wont make you cry.
And when I thought it was too good to be true, he blew me off and found
someone new.


Sometimes I wonder how people can become so insensitive. You show
them all your love and yet nothing happens and how insensitive we can
get too. We still love them even if we knew.

I long for you in a manner that youll never know. I need you in a
manner that youll never do. I miss you in a manner that youll never
feel. I love you in a manner that you never will.


If you love someone so much that you hardly even notice me loving
you, youre so devoted to give all your love while Im here eager to give
you mine. Im doing this because I love you even if you dont even care
to know.


A thousand words wont bring you back. I know coz Ive triedneither
would a thousand tears. I know coz Ive cried. You left me with pain and
good memories toobut I dont want memories, I want you.

Youll never understand why Im hurt so much because youre not the one
who is crying, youre not the one whos left behind, youre not the one
whos holding on to someone whos gone and youre not the one who would
even care even though you know I cry because of you.

If you want me to stay, I will. If you want me to go, Ill stay behind
you. But if one day you see me slowly fading, its not that I dont care
anymore, its becauseyou pushed me away.

I miss you not because youre gone but because things between us arent
the way they used to be. Im sorry not because I hurt you but because I
have fallen for you when Im not supposed to.

I tried to be strong, I tried to see through you. I tried to be
patient. I tried not to fall hard on you but I never succeeded. I guess
I was so stupid for trying at all coz for all the time I was tryingyou
were not mine.


After tonight as it all ends, will we end just as friends? After
tonight, as you leave my side, will you cry like I do till the tears
subside? After tonight, as you tell me were through, will you ever
realize I still love you


I wish you didnt ignore me when I showed you how special you are
to me. I wish you listened when I told you how much I care. I wish you
never let me go just when I was starting to fall for you.


You broke my heart but still I took the pain. You pushed me away
but still I waited till I went insane. I damn cried but you just looked
away. I told you I love you but still you didnt stay.


I remembered when you asked me to let you go, you were slowly
fading away. And I asked wasnt my love good enough? then you turned
around and said no, it was too much.


I hope I never met you so I wouldnt have fallen for you and I
wouldnt have to struggle with my feeling cause I know its impossible.
Please tell me what to doshould I just keep distance and try to forget
you?


Youve broken my heart by making me fall and now I wish I never
knew you at all. Youve played me around as if I were some kind of game
and now things will never be the same. But here I am still as stupid as
I can behoping and wishing that youll still love me.

I feel like finally its over. It doesnt hurt anymore. Finally, I could
smile againbut every once in a while, it comes back. I remember how I
lost the only person Ive ever loved. And I realized I still do.


Why do we tend to hurt the one we love and hurt our self twice as
much? Why do we have to give up if we still want to fight? Why do
things go wrong when all we do is love?


Its unfair to think so much of you when youre not missing me at
all. To cry when you never shed a tear. To love when you say words that
hurt my heart. And to live when you breathe for someone else.


Its so hard to close your eyes when all you can see are the things
that hurt you. So hard to close your lips when you want to shout out
the pain you feel and so hard to see someone you love loving someone
else.

How can I go on pretending that everything is fine, nothing has
changed, nothings still possible and some things are still the same
when after I convince myself I can forget you, I start falling for you
again?


If all is fair, why did you hurt me so? If all ends well, why did
you have to go? If happily ever after is true, then why am I herecrying
over you.


why do I want u back? why can’t I hate u? why can’t I let go of
your memories? why do I find it hard 2 4get u? so many why’s but the
most unanswered why is why do I still love you when you said goodbye?"


U never know I Liked U, I Was 2 shy To Tell.. Not knowing What t0
say, Not knowing What I Felt. U never Knew I loved u, U might Not know
Still. I May never Say I Love u, CoZ u Never will..=(


I let u go because you want it. I let u go because u want to be
free. I let you go because that’s what you like w/o knowing you hurt
someone & I’d let you go because at first reason iluvu


tonight as I sleep I cry, why do I have 2 let go of someone
special like u?, I love u so much, you’re my world, then why?..i know!
it’s the only way of making u happy, happy with someone and not with
me..


when you said goodbye, you told me it’s because you don’t want 2
hurt me someday but how I wish that before you did, you thought that
maybe, just maybe, I would have preferred 2 be hurt than 2 lose you…

Im convincing myself Ill find someone new I won’t be alone & I
won’t be with you you’re waiting 4 me 2 crawl back 2 your side but no,
but this time, Im keeping my pride so goodbye 4ever, Ill be on my way
it may take a while but Ill b ok…


I will forget the times you walked by forget d times u made me
cry. Ill forget d times u said my name and remember now Im not d same
Ill forget d times u held my hand 4get d sweet things if I can. Ill
forget the times and not pretend and remember now Im just your friend


Dont tell me more lies, pretending that you’re satisfied. I know
you’re love is not true so quit trying 2 play me like a fool. U know
that you’re wrong, you’re here for 1 minute and the next thing, you’re
gone. Im not blind, I can see. So why don’t u admit u don’t love me? =(


I’M JUST WONDERING… WHY U GONNA HURT ME??? MAYBE I’D BEEN A FOOL
2 Loving U, BUT Behind that… I’M HAPPY AND PROUD, that Somewhere IN
MY LIFE, Ive known U & Loved YOU!!! TAKE CARE…


When I said go I wasn’t pushing you away but setting you free.
When I said enough I haven’t given up I just need a break. When I said
goodbye I didn’t mean farewell but what could I do? U were gone before
I could say come back..


Im sorry if I caused u pain. Im sorry if I made u walk away. Im
sorry if I misunderstand u, but one thing u ignored 2 see, I was crying
so hard begging pls. Dont leave me..’ =(


I was busy talking to you.. Telling you how much I love you. When
someone told me "are you crazy? Youre talking to someone asleep!" I
said, I know, but this is the only time he’ll listen to me"


I love you, and I know that from the very start that I really do,
the only problem y I find it hard to say was I don’t know how to show
it to you the way you want me to.


I like U.. I miss U.. I think of you. And I love U!! I’ve done
every possible way for you to know. I know U feel the same way as I do.
The only difference is that… U never had shown me.."


If I die tonight and the reason remains unknown… tell d whole
world that I die of a broken heart… not because you loved me a little
but because I loved you too much!!!:(


Why r words "I love you" so easily pronounced yet so hard to say?
Its because it’s hard to admit to yourself that the person you love
might not feel the same way as u do…

Maybe you’ll soon forget me but its okay coz I may not be your ideal
person but at least you’ll remember me as someone who tried to be
perfect for you


I dont want to say I miss you though deep inside I do coz Im
afraid you might see through & know how much fear I have of losing
someone like you.


When you fall in love, there’s always the risk of getting hurt,
love is restless, love is flirt, love has places to go and people to
hurt


There would come a time when we have to stop loving someone not
because that person has started hating us but because we found out that
they’d be happier if we let them go.


"Never Again!" that is what I said to myself, I never wanted to
feel this kind of pain again just when I thought It was over, just when
I thought it was through, I found myself back in love with you!


There’s a light in your eyes but it’s too bright to see… There’s
a pain in your heart where you used to be…I guess I was wrong to
believe that you were waiting for me…coz there’s light in your eyes
but it’s not for me.


Why do you have to leave now that I’m madly in love with you? Why
do you have to say goodbye now that my everything is you? Why do I have
to set you free now I know that all I need is you?


I tried to take d pain away by finding someone new. But den I came
to realized no one compares to you and even if I look around and
pretend not to cry, I’ll always go back to the day you finally said
goodbye


You who loved me and also cared, me who acts like you’re not
there. You who’ve caught me when I fall, me who ignores your effort at
all. You who cared and was willing to wait, me loving you, but now its
too late.


I met him and he liked me. I said hello and he said we’re friends.
I gave him a hug and he hugged me back. I gave him my hand and he held
tight. I said I love u but he said I can’t, I belong 2 sum1 else.


It hurts to get your heart broken, it hurts to be left by someone
you love, but nothing hurts more than both if you know youre still in
love with each other yet you can do nothing with it, for you both
already have someone else


No matter how many tears I’ve cried, your still not there. No
matter how sweet my smile was, you still didn’t care. No matter how
much affection I show, Im still at the dark. No matter how much I love
you, you still broke my heart


Sometimes, you think youve gotten over a person, but when you see
him smile, you suddenly realize that youre just pretending you got over
him to ease the pain of knowing that hell never be yours.


Ive forgotten my broken heart, Ive forgotten the tears I cried,
Ive forgotten the pain in me and all the hurt inside, Ive forgotten all
of this and what Ive been through… but despite all of this.. I still
havent forgotten you.


Sometimes we fall for the wrong person thinking theyre the one, we
cry when they leave, we wait for them to return, we give everything
just to have them back, only to find out they have forgotten us all
this time.


If you think its time to let go, just let go, for there is no
point in looking back at what you have lost. For the road of life was
never meant to be travel backwards.


You never told me youre sorry. You never told me you never meant
to break my heart. You never told me youd make it up to me. Thats why I
never told you Id always forgive you, because thats how much I love
you…

I hate to smile just to pretend Im not hurt. I hate to giggle just to
show you Ill be ok. I hate to laugh if after Ill cry. I still love you,
and youve said goodbye…


Saying goodbye makes you realize how much you care, how much you
love, how much you miss and how much loss you had knowing that some
things will never be the same again.


Dont look at me and say goodbye. Dont whisper words to make me
cry. Just walk away if you have to go. You will break my heart but I
promise I wont ever let you know.


I thought you said you loved me, I thought you said you cared. I
thought that you were meant for me, but I guess you were scared. I
couldnt believe you let go of me when your love was already there.


Even if you set me free, right beside you Ill always be, and only
time will tell, if youll come back to me as a lover or a friend. I want
you to know, Id still say yes to you again.


I wanted so much to regret our first kiss, so that I wouldnt be
hurting like this… but whenever I think about that kiss and the
feeling we both felt, it makes the hurting worthwhile.

Sometimes we smile to cover up the pain, sometimes we tend to laugh to
cover up the hurt, but whether you smile or laugh, you can never hide
what youre feeling inside even if a day should go by on.


How do you find the words to say if you find somebody new? How do
you tell a loved one that there was nothing you could do? To look into
their eyes and then say goodbye, to turn to other cheek when desperate
eyes begin to cry.


Although love means never giving up, it can also mean letting go.
Sometimes well meet people who cant be strong and whose weakness will
poison us. When loving becomes a one-way process, we have to let go…


Im sorry if you cant love me the way you loved the one before
me… so Ill let you go to find her and hope someday youll see that the
one true love youre looking for was the one who set you free.


You never loved me, I think its certain. Within sometimes we grew
apart and not someone else holds your heart. There are still nights,
tears flow and I cry… its just now that I realized I havent said
goodbye…


Sometimes you think youre already over the person but once you see
him smile you suddenly realize that youre just pretending to be over
him just to ease the pain.


A great love? Its when you shed tears for him but still you care
for him. Its when he ignored you but still you long for him. Its when
he begins to love another yet you still smile and say, "Im happy for
you."


When youre running after the person you love, youre too busy to
notice me running after you. dont mind me, but when you stumble and
fall, take my hand and let me be the one to help you get up again.


You may not see me the way I see you. You may not care for me the
way that I care for you. You may not feel anything for me even if I
feel so much for you. And you may never ever love me even if I’ll
always be here loving you.

While you gave her flowers, you gave me thorns. When all she did was
smile, all I did was mourn. While she was so happy, I felt so blue. Coz
while you loved her, I was here loving you…


Dont be too nice, dont be too sweet, dont be too thoughtful, coz I
might just like it. And when I do, you might regret it, coz when youre
so nice, you make me forget, that youre just a friend, nothing more,
nothing less.


Dont be surprised if one day I’ll avoid you and be gone. Its not
because youve done something wrong and I hate you because I’m afraid to
love and be hurt again by somebody who cant love me.


They say loving you is my biggest mistake but how can it be so
wrong if it feels so right? If ever I made a mistake, its not that I
love you, its thinking that someday youll love me too…


How do I say goodbye to someone I never had? Why do my tears fall
for someone who was never mine? Why is it that I miss someone I was
never with? And why do I love someone whose love was never mine?


Inside I admired you, inside I cherished your every ways, inside I
loved you, and still inside I cry, coz I know its only inside that I
can have you.


after all the thinking, I realized that to have you will never be,
I know you’re not for me, I know you belong to someone else, and yet
every time I wake up, I fall for you all over again.


do you know that the worst way that I can miss you is not when
you’re far away? it’s when you’re right beside me and yet I know I can
never have you coz am simply watching you fall for someone else.

hold me one last time before you go and leave, touch me one last time
tell me to believe in this, I ask for one last time and please don’t
lie, say I love you one last time before you say goodbye.


it hurts when the person you love don’t say I love you. but it
even hurts when you realize that you can say I love you but too late to
do so coz she’s too tired of waiting for you to say it.


sometimes love is so unfair, the more you sacrifice, the more you
are hurt and when you feel you’ve given your best, it still seems not
enough, till such time you had no choice but to give up.

i missed the times with you, the times we’ve spent together, the
memories i’ve kept for reasons or whatever…but now you’re so far,
you’ve been so unfair, and now i knock on your heart asking, "am i
still there?"


i know it hurts so much but its best for us. somewhere along this
windy road we lost the trust. so i’ll walk away so you dont have to see
me cry. Its killing me so, why dont you go?!


It was you who introduce me the word "change", It was you inspires
me to change, I’m happy because I was changed, But I am more sad
because Its not you The one I’d shared my change.


I was there for you because I love you, I leave you because I love
you so much, So I set you free because I know you were not happy with
my company


It’s unfair but will it be considered as a mistake or would i
rather say a "sin". Better be hurt early than to suffer forever. Sounds
selfish though but i have my own happiness to fight with. I’m sorry i
did it but it’s for the best……… i hope.


when you accused me of not loving you, a silent tear fell from my
eyes… the pain was too much i cant help but cry.. coz if only u
looked hard to see. loving you meant everything to me…


you eased the pain when I faked the wound, you calmed me down I
faked the mood, you were instantly there when I faked the call, but why
didn’t you catch me… I didn’t faked the fall…


You could’ve heard a pin drop, When they walked through the door,
Had to turn my eyes away, My heart fell to the floor. Someone whispered
where’s her halo? Cause she had an angels face, He stood there smiling,
holding on to the one who took my place…


You want to know what is hard?  Its not when I dont get to see you
as often as I would like.  Its not when I think of you at night.  Its
when I start to love you knowing that its not right.


You were someone I never thought Id be a fool for, you were
someone I never thought Id care so much about, you were someone I never
thought Id miss but have I been a someone to you?


If I could, Ill not only touch you but hold you forever.  Not only
stay with you for a moment but be with you for a lifetime… Not only
care for you for a while but love you for the rest of my life… Only
if I could.


Is it going to be like this forever?  Me wanting you, and you
wanting him?  How unfair life is.  Ill just cry my tears though no one
will dry them but still Ill love you and still you wont notice.

when i told you to give up on me, it doesn’t mean that i don’t love
you. it simply means i’m not confident and i’m afraid i might hurt you.


I imagined us to be together one day but it never came true. You know
how I know? Cause i seen u wid someone else and it wasn’t me.

i used to believe that a smile can change everything. i used to believe
that a sorry can mean a lot. i used to believe with an "i love you" it
can turn anything bad … good… but now.. i don’t know what i believe
in anymore… you’re gone that’s why

if loving you s wrong i dnt want to be corrected. i’d rather stay a
sinner of loving you and suffer ol d consequences dan not bein able to
hold u in my arms and tel how much i love u

you can hide the pain that you feel and make others believe you can
move on. but you can never deny the truth to yourself, that the person
who has failed and hurt you, is still the person you’ll alweiz choose
to love…

hw do i say gudbye 2 sum1 i nvr had? y do tears fall 4 sum1 who was nvr
mine? y is it dat i mis sum1 i was nvr wid? n i ask y i luv sum1 whose
luv was nvr mine? 

You don’t love me, do you? You don’t care, do you? See, you can’t
answer! I’m letting you go… Why? Coz i’m doing everything just to
have you, yet I still don’t have you… And you? You do nothing yet you
have me! =(

evrytym i close my eyes i hope dat wen i open dem i wud c u besyd
me..but as i open my eyes only tears wud fall and id wake up to dis
damn reality dt im ol alone coz u left me behind….

slowly.. u feel me slippin away frm u. nt bcoz i realyzd dt i dnt luv
u, bt bcoz im in a place wer im nt suppose 2 stay. slowly, il b gone.
bt did u ever know i was.. here?!

if u want me 2 stay, i will. if u want me 2 go, il stay behind u. bt if
1 tym ul c me fading.. its not bcoz i dont luv u, ders only 1 rizon.. u
pushed me away..

i want 2 say iluvu, i want 2 say icare. i want 2 hold u in my arms
& just keep u der. i want 2 make u happy, i want to make u smyl, bt
will she ever lend u to me even 4 just awyl?!

it hurts so much to know dat i have fallen 4 sum1 who wud juz leave me
hangin in d air.. y? coz ive closed my eyes frm d reality dat u nver
rily luved me.. u juz cared =’(

u eased d pain wen i faked d wound. u calmd me down wen i faked d mood.
u wer instantly der wen i faked d call, bt y didnt u catch me? i didnt
faked d fall?!

U myt say I was d 1st 2 let go between us…I sed gudbye & u let me
go juz lyk dat…wen all I evr wantd was 4 u 2 cme aftr me &
say,"_____…pls stay"…but u nvr did… =(

I ddn’t want 2 let u go, I ddn’t want our luv 2 end, I ddn’t want u 2
fynd some1 new. Coz I knew dat my hrt wud b 2 hurt 2 mend. But I did
it, I let u go. I let go of all ur lies & broken promises, I fnally
learnd how 2 say gud bye… =(

I cud giv u risons as many as u lyk on y I shud better stay away &
keep d wall standin between us. I can easily 2rn & leave our past
& juz kip on livin on wat we hav now. Itz juz my heart dts keep on
pullin me bak thru beyond d wall…

I had a drim & it was about u. I smyld & recalled d memories we
had, then I notice a tear fell from my eyes. U know y? coz in my dream,
u kissed me & said good bye… :(

"I know I will never have you, So why do I try? I know you will never
care so why do I cry? I am going to forget you, I tell myself a lie
because I will always love you till the day i die."

A thousand words won’t bring u back, i know coz i’ve tried. Neither a
thousand tears, iknow coz i’ve tried. You left me with pain and good
memories, but I don’t want memories…I want you back……………

Sometyms u ignore d 1 hu luvs u coz u knw she’ll stay. But ur wrong,
coz someday…d 1 hu luvs u myt find some1 who’d appreciate her luv w/c
she ddnt feel from u

It hurts 2 say gud bye 2 a person dat u almost gave ur lyf 2, knwing
lyf won’t b d same w/o her…but itz better 2 giv up d feeling rather
than d fyt, knwing dat ur d only 1 fighting


its painful to let go of the love u hv in ur heart, its more
painful to hold on to it knowing it wsnt destind to be, bt it is most
painful to wait, knowing u can nvr b togehter…

i hav sed a hundred thinking-of-yous. i hav sed a thousand
yous-miss-yous. i hav sed a million yous-love-yousbt nothin prepared me
wd dt one goodbye..


i cre 4u en i knw u knw. dts y i cnt undrstnd y u hv 2hurt me d
way u do. id lyk 2ask u 2xplain bt i knw u dnt wnt 2, so il jst b 4evr
guessing wt i min 2u.

i ws bsyd u last nyt. i cnt xplain wt i felt bcoz finally, my drim came
true. u stared at me 4d 1st tym, wen suddenly a tir fel frm ur eyes…
den u sed, "im sori, bt i dnt luv u anymor".

smday ul find d1 ur lukin 4, 1 hu wud luv u evn mor… smday, ul find
d1 ur destind 2b, en il b left hir wndrin… y dt prsn isnt me…

luk wt uv done 2me, i cnt stop dis tirs frm folin frm my eyes. ho cn i
luv smbody els if i cnt luv myself enuf 2knw wen its tym, tym 2let
go… i cnt hide d way i fil insyd, i dnt knw y, bt evryday, i wanna
cry.

u aren’t wort my tirs if u cn evr mke me cry, u aren’t wort trusting if
ol u do is lie, u aren’t wort luvin if ur gonna break my hart… so y
am i tryin 2b wd u wen we are better off apart?

i just realized dt sum frends r 2 gud ovr love.. ur 1 of dem.. dats wen
i thot n decided.. ‘ano silbi ng pagmamahal ko sayo kung un ang ccra sa
pagkakaibgan nten?’=c

I nver rili wntd 2 let go of u,  bt u wntd 2 b free. I wntd 2 stay,bt u
wntd me 2 go.I nver gve up until u told me dat all da tym i was loving
u.U were wishing me gone.


a girl came up 2me,askin if i love you…i told her i do!’she
slapped me n my face and told me 2 stop dreamin…a tear fell fr my
eyes…y?coz…..i saw u standin ryt next 2 her…

Here we go againshes breaking youre heart. Youd run to me and comfort
the pain. Youll tell me the same line than sooner or later youll get
over her. Then I smiled and thought ‘""""""""if only it was that easyId
be over you too."


wen u accused me of not luvin u… a silent tear fell from my
eyes… d pain was so much… i cnt help but cry… cz if u lukd hard 2
see… lovin u meant evrything 2 me.. :’c

When U LoVe some1, u giv evrythng w/o thnking twice… u deny d truth,
u bliv n lies, u cry over d things dat hurts u, bt u stl say, "I’m Ok"
even if it hurts…

you can’t hear me if you won’t listen.. i won’t hear you if you won’t
speak.. you’ve closed your eyes and failed to see…that living you
meant everything to me..

ol over agn, my tears wud cme 2 all, ol ovr agn i’d stnd up and un-cry
dem ol..ol over agn u hurt me and will sey gudbye, bt i gess im s2pid
cuz ol ovr agn i strt 2 cry…

I neva realize how hard to lose someone till u left me behind. So i
prmise my self i’ll stop luvn bt then it happen again i fel in luv. and
once again I was left behind.

it hurts to be lefted by the one u love,but it would be more sad,if ur
still together,but the one u love is not inlove with u anymore

you know what? in a way, we both have mutual feelings towards each
other. me, trying to stop loving you but i just can’t… and you,
trying to love me, but you just can’t..

sometimes we take for granted those we love, thinking they’ll always be
around. but what we fail to see is sometimes the time will come that
they might also give up and all you can do is just watch them go…

Wanting him is hard to get. Loving him is hard to regret. Losing him is
hard to accept. But with all the hurt I’ve felt, letting go is the most
painful yet

I cry for the time that U were almost mine, I cry 4 the memories I’ve
left behind, I cry for the pain, the lost, the old the new, I cry for
the times I thought I had you

i alwys thnk of d way ur hnd brushes myn.. d way u whspr d switest wrds
n my ear.. & wn i thnk of dos tyms.. i alwys end up fndng myslf
dreamng..jst dreamng..

im so tyrd of cryn..of 2 mch hurtn.. bt i cnt let go & leav u..i
kip on sayn enuf is enuf.. bt i jst cdnt gv up.. cz i ges wn it cums 2
luvn u..enuf is nvr enuf..

i always thought that love can melt away the pain, no matter how
painful it is… but now i realized that pain, can melt away the
love…. no matter how great love is…….

you promised me you’d never leave me. i believed you so i let myself
fall hard. time passed and i didn’t hear from you. i realized it was a
lie because you left without saying goodbye.

i wonder if you still care about me. i often wonder if i still make you
happy. i wonder if i’m right for you. i wonder if you still love me.
coz under your smile, sadness shows. i wonder if i have to let you go.

if ever i would be given a chance or even juz a minute to talk to you
and tell you how i feel… i’ll juz let it pass cuz i know that you
will never ever listen to me nor believe in wut i say….:’(

sometimes, you think your already over a person but when you see him
smile, you’ll suddenly realize that you’re jsut pretending to be over
him just to ease the pain of knowing he’ll never be yours.

sometimes in life, you wish for something. then there comes a moment
when you stop wishing, not because you got what you wanted, but because
you finally accepted that not all wishes come true.

i heard sum1 say dat if wishes don’t come true, d star wud cry… one
nyt, i thought of wishing upon one… i wished that someday you’ll be
mine… but just when i was about to close my window and sleep… a
tear fell… =’c


Your wedding daydont worryjust because were not together anymore,
doesnt mean I wont care. Ill still care. Ill be there on the last
pewwishing that it was me beside you saying "I do"


der are sumthings i cnt see but i chose 2 bliv in reasons dat i’ve
got but cant xplain mistake at i cnt bring myself to regret and a love
so hopeless dat i chose 2 fight for"…


1 day, il b able 2 luk u n d eye w/o filin d pain dat u coz.. 1
day il b able 2 stnd nxt 2 u w/o wantin 2 hld ur hand.. 1 day il get
over u.. im sori but dat day hasnt come yet


WAIT!! Dats wat I sed b4 u went away. WAIT dats wat im doin until
2day. WAIT until 4ever I guess I wil.. I juz wish I cud hav 2ld u..
WAIT, I stil luv u..

dunno y I kip on luvin u despite d fact dat I knw il get hurt agen jz
lyk before.. I nvr learnd not now! now wyl im stil strong enuf 2 fol 4
u over and over agen..


I have a story abt u & me.. im inluv & u too n fact we
feel d same way.. bt drs a dference.. wat?? wid u im nluv wyl u r
dspr8ly falin 4 smbdy else..

I LOvE yOU! dat i wud sell my soul 2 d devil jz 4 u.. but ol I cn do is
stare & be hapi 4u coz dats wat God sent me hir 2 b.. a frend..
just one damn frend.. =(


2nyt as it ol ends, wil we end up jaz frends? after 2nyt as u liv
my side, wil u cry lyk I do til d tears subsyd? After 2nyt as u tel me
wer tru, wil u ever realyz I stil love u =(


My frend once askd me if i do love u… i answrd "yes", dey askd
me agen, "does he love u?" den i sat dwn, luk at d stars & closd my
eyes. wshes do cme tru ryt?


u t0rn my hrt n2 pcS…u sw0r dt u w0nt&prmSd 2brnG d vrken
pCs bk f evR..bt nw uR g0ne,m nt xpctn u 2cm bk,i geS oL iCn d0 s 2ask
u2 rtrn wt uv tkn fRm mE:myHRT!

y did i believe and trust u? y did i live my fantasies? y did im stil
longing 4 u? may be bcoz i was 2 carried away…..believing dat u’ve
loved me….

i Learned 2 cre 4u&Lernd how it fiLs 2b ignord,i Lernd 2w8
4u&Lernd how 2gt tyrd.i Lernd how 2Liv 4u&Lernd how 2 dy..wts
wors dt i Lernd 2Luv u bt nvr Lern 2Let u go.

u promiz 2 tke cre of me,bt u Lef me,u promiz 2 gve me joy bt u brot me
tears,u promiz 2 gve me Luv bt u gve me pain..me?i promiz u nothng bt i
gve u evrythng.


i tryd 2 Luv u as much as i cud,stiL u ddnt c,u ddnt undrstnd..so
its 4 me 2 muv on,its sims ur goin anyway,juz rmmbr b4 i say gudbye wen
i say i Luv u wsnt a Lie.

do u knw how much it hurts evrytym i see him look at u, evrytym he
mentions ur name, for christ’s sake. but no matter how it tears me up
inside, one thing i want ryt now is for you to be wid him, bcoz he
needs you ryt now!

is it over now or is it still? we both walked away from things beyond
our control, but before you go… i just wanna know, did i love you too
late or you just gave up on me too soon?

hu cares if ur smyl cause havoc 2 my hart.. ur eyes holdin me at ur
mercy. I dont care!!!! So hu r u?? enewei, ur juz no one.. a no one im
so crazy abt..

F u only knew how painful it was 4 me 2 let u go den u wud hav fought 4
us not 2 part.. I guess its abt tym 2 let u knw dat until now u stil
hav my heart.. i stil luv u..

Tonight, dont be afraid to go out…. look for the brightest star and
make a wish.. it might come true.. coz the last time i did, i met
YOU…

Though you’re not mine I still care, You’re not with me but I miss you!
I know you don’t love me & you’ll never do… but the problem with
me is why do I keep on loving you?

If there could be one thing I could never afford to set free, that
would be you, its because youve made my life so complete, that you
being apart from me could kill me, you wont let me die, would you?

i dont know how to tell you my fellings for you, you might just laugh
at me, then i would never to be able to face up to ever again but i
just want you to remember that im always here for you when you need
me…

s0mE dEi iLL bE g0ne and theRes no ris0n 4 mE 2 stEi..w0rds left
unsp0kEn..acx0ns nEver xpreSsed.. but u kn0w wut?!? iLL nevEr 4get how
"____" oNce mAdE "____" c0mplete

u cn see a cLock,bt u cant see d tym.u cn see my face,bt u cant see my
mind.u can see d cLouds,bt u cant see d wind.u can see my Luv 4u
bgin,bt u wont see it end.

sumwer in ur hart try 2 find pLace 4me,sumwer in ur hart i wont care
wer it wud b.1 LitLe corner may not mean so much 2u,but 1 LitLe corner
is aL i ask of u.

u knoe Im wiling 2 do anyting jaz 2 kip u n mah hart I messed arwnd nd
gve up evrything I thot we’d nver part I ws a plyer &I meyd d
choice 2 gve mah hart 2u I gotta kip it dat way

i hate d damn fact dat i luvd u & i gve u my everything. i hate d
damn fact dat she got u & left me wid nothin. i hate d damn fact
dat i stil luv u even if u left me cryin…

it’s hard to go on living while loving someone secretly, it hurts to
see the one you love so happy with someone else but the most painful
thing about hiding love is that it never fades away..

Here you left me, lonely and sad, I pretended it wasn’t that bad.. I
saw you hugging her and though it hurts me so, I closed my eyes and
asked myself, "God, why did I let him go?"

m nt an angel as u cn c&dr r s0 mny thngs u stl dnt knw about me.my
lyf isnt prfct,infct evrythns a mes,& f u nly try 2luk dpr n2 wt
im….myb dn, ud luv me les….

d TyMs u nidEd sM1 2uNdrStnd i wSnt der… d tyMs u cRyD, i wSnt dEr
olso…"y?"… bCz u oLwYs lUk 4 sUm1 eLs…n0t kNwnG dt im oLwyS
bSyDu…w8nG 4u nD mE,sMhW… :c

i told you i love you.. you said you love me too!… i told you i
care… you said you care for me too!… thru my actions i prove that i
rily do.. but your actions don’t show that what you all said are
true!…..

i found the right guy, gave the perfect love, it was the right time..
everything was perfect there was just one problem.. for him i wasn’t
the perfect girl, i wasn’t even close to being the right one..

wn i c u i often tel dm: "dat girl mins a lot 2me" or "dt girl is d
rison of my xstence" & "dt girl is my lyf", bt wen can il evr say:
"u knw dt girl? dt girl is myn.." :’c

if gudbye wiL b d 1St word i hav 2 say b4 i die, i won’t let it b
SPOKEN. i’d rather die than 2 say gudbye 2 sum1 dat i dnt wnt 2 give up
even after death…

u wr nvr dr by my syd, u wr nvr dr wn i wna cry, u wr nvr dr lyk u sd u
wud, u wr nvr dr lyk u shud, u wr nvr dr frm d strt… cz i ws nvr
dr…(in ur hart) :’c

i was smyling cz i saw a guy and a girl so sweet, i saw dem holdn
hands.. i luk at them agen without knowing that my tirs began to fall..
i just remembered.. dat guy i saw.. was holding my hands before…

When I see a star, I remember you and I cry. Why? Coz I was under that
star when I wished for you. I was under that star when I had you and I
was under that star when u suddenly wished for someone new :c

I love you so much but you said we’re better off as friends. I cried
but it didn’t help much coz’ you love someone new and because of her,
You forgot that you once said you love me too.

girl realized she wants her love back, but the guy said "No".
The girl cried to GOD. "If we were meant for each other, Why did I lost
him?" God replied, "You didn’t lose him. You let him go".

While you give her flowers, you give me tears, while all she did was
smile, all i did was mourn; while she felt so happy, I felt so blue;
because while you love her, I was here loving you.

iF u dnt wnt mE 2 gO, dnt leT d tiRs fOL dOwn… dnt leT d woRds rUn
fiRst, dnt bLame thE wORLd 4 uS… buT rathEr hOLd me tyt and whisPer
the wOrds i lonG tO hEar, "Please staY…"

i dnt knw y u h8d me nw, i thot evrthn was goin so ryt..i dd evrtn jz
2shw u hw mch i luv u! o damn i was so inluv wit u! bt nw,i cn’t c hw u
mde me do dat,i dnt evn rmmbr hw u mde me lyk u..was i dat s2pd?.

it hurts 2 let go of sum1 4 a rison u cnt xplain,bt it wud hurt
evn mor f 1day u cross paths agen & u realyz ur stil nluv w/ dt
person wishn u hadn’t gven up..

Its hard 2 hold on 2 somthin dat can nvr b urs n any way u thnk of.. u
jst hav 2 learn 2 let go & accept d fact dat wyl gud things nvr
rili last.. some dnt even start…

i hAd A dRim & it wAs Abt U, i Smyld & rEcAld d mEmris wE hd,
dn i n0tcd A tir Fel frm my EyEs… u Kn0w y? c0z in my drims, U ksSd
mE…dEn U sAiD g0odbyE ..


ts hr l0ve dt u wnt,hr nme u speak..shes d nly1 u drm of..d nly1 u
seek..i wsh im d1 u luv,bt i guess i jst cnt be.cz she alwys ownd ur
hart,t ws nvr me..:c


Don’t be afraid to say I LOVE YOU to the one you love, for it
might be too late to say it once you feel like saying it, he’s already
found the comfort of hearing it from someone else.:’(


What’s the use of letting me falling in love with you, when all
you wanted was just a friend?What’s the use of letting you know I am
just right here waiting for you, if I’ll have to wait in vain?What’s
the use of living this life, when you’re gone and will never be back
again?

When I was crying in pain for a love lost, you came;When I needed a
hand to hold, you gave yours;When I couldn’t slept at night, you
cuddled me;Now that I’m loving you… You Left me.


This past few days, I started to miss you, I have this feeling and
I don’t know how to deal with it then I realized it’s love, I know I
can’t let this grow, coz we’re friends….yeah…we’re just friends…


Someday you’ll find the one you’re looking for, one who would love
you even more…someday, you’ll find the one you’re destined to be, and
I’ll be left here wondering…why that person isn’t me…


People say, if you love someone, let them go, if they come back,
they will be yours, if they never come, they were never yours to be
with…You let me go and now I’m back to you, so why are you with
another girl?


I will forget the times you walked by forget d times u made me
cry. I’ll forget d times u said my name and remember now I’m not d same
I’ll forget d times u held my hand 4get d sweet things if I can. I’ll
forget the times and not pretend and remember now I’m just your friend…


dey say luving is my biggest mistke. bt hw can it b so wrng if it
fils so right? if evr i made a mistake, its not dat i luv, its thnking
smeday ul luv me 2…


I dnt need some1 hul just b der, I nid some1 hul b der holding me
and sincerely care 4 me til GOD takes my last breath from me, so do I
make sense if I ask u?.


Why do you have to make me fall when you are not going to catch
me…? It hurts when you didnt catch me when I fell but it hurts even
more to see you catch someone else while I was falling…


wen u luv some1.u nid2 fight 4 it.datz y i ws wiling 2 fight 4 u.
2mke u realze hw mch iLOVEu.bt wen i saw da luk in ur eyez wnvr she`s
arnd.i knw i lost evn b4 d fight began..


I’ve convinced everyone else that I don’t like you and that I
don’t want you anymore, and most of all, that i dont love you anymore..
Now all I need to do is convince myself.


Someone told me he loves me…I believed him.. He promised me
4ever…i doubted him..Then he asked me…"Why, can’t you love me 4ever
also?…then i answered him…."No, co’z if 4ever s 2day will u stop
loving me then?


sometimes i wonder how ppl can become so insensitive…u show them
all ur luv but still, nothin happens.. and how can we get to be
insensitive too, we still luv them even if we knew… :(

maybe the day wud c0m that id 4get the way u made me cry 0r h0w u
br0ke my heart,but what i cud nvr 4get was the way u lukd yl u slept n
my arms. u lukd so "..mine.." =c


look up at d sky.. ud c me der.. 1 lonely star niding love and
cre.. i juz wanna be alone.. i dont know wat 2 du.. juz diz pathetic
little star stil hurting over u..


I can pretend and say "I can let go of you." I can pretend to
smile and laugh with the fact of losing you. i can say i can over this
hurt fast.. but my heart can’t pretend..for deep inside its bleeding.


Dont be surprised if one day ill avoid u and be gone, its not bcoz
u did something wrong and that i hate u, its bcoz im afraid 2 love and
be hurt again by somebody who cant love me.


wt did u mean wn u sed u luv me? s ds hw u luv sm1,u mke dm fol 4u
dn leave dm behind? f dats hw u do it, i must say… u’ve done it quite
well..

shuld i or shuld i not.. datz da toughest q i evr heard & answer..
i sat & thnk wat im gonna say.. i cried 2.. but still i dunno wat 2
say.. but hirs 1 thng i know dat my hart is stil urs.. w8n 4 u ..


Why do i cry every night!? Is it because your not the old _______
I know or is it I’m just sick & tired of doing every way I know for
you to realize how much I LOVE YOU!? I think its both!


people say love is the best gift anyone could ever give and have.
my heart was crushed and i asked myself:"isn’t it tragic when i’ve got
so much love to give yet no one seems to want it?"


wen wer stil 2gdr, i met dis nice guy and suddnly fel..i dnt wnt
2tel u coz it wil cause our breakup..den,1day i c myself crying…and
tel 2 myself:"was i dat s2pd?" den,i found out dat……"he’s ur best
friend!"


i was hurt wen u left me but ive lernd 2 b strong. tym heald d
pain and ive learnd 2 move on, ive promised myself dat il just b ur
frend but y is it dat after ol dis time im back luving u agen?


sometime love is unfair the more you sacrifice, the more you hurt
and when time you’ve given the best it is not enough to make a choose
but to give up….


2day i walked away… baby i wanted to look back so badly… but i
knew u wudnt be there… i was just scared to face the fact.. u wont be
going after me.. ever…


i have come to realiza that h’es just a guy…a great
one,maybe..but he’s not mine..and i don’t need to do things to make him
love me..coz if he really wanted to…..he would..=c

Dedicated to Irene

June 9th, 2007 by allyevejeff

I really hate it when my so called friends close up on me..,
I mean we’re FRIENDS right?
They say that I dont understand..I have a happy and wonderful life..I have a complete family..
Hell yes I have!so what? It’s because we worked hard FOR IT!
We didn’t just wallow and sulk when misunderstandings come up..
We strive hard to work it all up..if not we talk..
Communication is not a hard thing to overcome..That’s the reason we have Mobile phones, if you can’t a simple call THEN step on it,burn it then throw it away..It’s darn USELESS!.
Most of my friends have Family problems.
They say that it’s either the parents don’t give attention to them or they are so strict..,
Well can you imagine?
Then they say
"They dont understand"
But when I ask them "Do they DONT understand or you WONT let them understand?"
when I ask that they come all defensive like a innocent in court and say "I’m siding on their Parents"
it’s just parents are hard to understand but the children are harder.
I just want to know the side of the parents, I cant be all one sided and say to my friend to be mad at their parents when I know nothing about it..,
It’s really hard to tell advices ..
tricky thing actually..,
when your friends say "who asked your opinion?"
"I’m not forcing you to do this, I just want to share it to you that
I may not feel what you feel now but I know it hurts and to know that much it hurts me too.. "
that’s the last words we exchanged..

I may not be a good friend but after 2-3 weeks me and my friend got to speaking terms again and at the same time, She and her Father got too.

How are you doing dearie?..,
Hope you and your Father are alright now..,
Dont give the Old Man a hard time Luv.,

~Ally Marie

Dedicated to Irene

June 9th, 2007 by allyevejeff

I really hate it when my so called friends close up on me..,
I mean we’re FRIENDS right?
They say that I dont understand..I have a happy and wonderful life..I have a complete family..
Hell yes I have!so what? It’s because we worked hard FOR IT!
We didn’t just wallow and sulk when misunderstandings come up..
We strive hard to work it all up..if not we talk..
Communication is not a hard thing to overcome..That’s the reason we have Mobile phones, if you can’t a simple call THEN step on it,burn it then throw it away..It’s darn USELESS!.
Most of my friends have Family problems.
They say that it’s either the parents don’t give attention to them or they are so strict..,
Well can you imagine?
Then they say
"They dont understand"
But when I ask them "Do they DONT understand or you WONT let them understand?"
when I ask that they come all defensive like a innocent in court and say "I’m siding on their Parents"
it’s just parents are hard to understand but the children are harder.
I just want to know the side of the parents, I cant be all one sided and say to my friend to be mad at their parents when I know nothing about it..,
It’s really hard to tell advices ..
tricky thing actually..,
when your friends say "who asked your opinion?"
"I’m not forcing you to do this, I just want to share it to you that
I may not feel what you feel now but I know it hurts and to know that much it hurts me too.. "
that’s the last words we exchanged..

I may not be a good friend but after 2-3 weeks me and my friend got to speaking terms again and at the same time, She and her Father got too.

hope you and your dad are okay now
dont give the old man a hard time luv,
~Ally Marie

HEY!!!

March 11th, 2007 by allyevejeff

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Macbeth

February 20th, 2007 by allyevejeff

 

 


OUR PLAY;



Enjoying "Macbeth", by William Shakespeare

by Ed Friedlander, M.D.


 

 Warning: Macbeth is supposed to upset people.
It shows
life at its most brutal and cynical, in order to ask life’s toughest question.
This page deals with all this without apology. 
I have a high regard for truth and I talk plain.
If you want something nice, please leave
now
.

 

Wimbledon Studio Theater

 

Birnam Wood, by a Germantown Academy student


If you are a student assigned to read or see Macbeth, or
an adult approaching it for the first time, you
are in for a lot of fun.

Everybody brings a different set of experiences to a book,
a theater, or a classroom.  Although I’ve tried to help,
ultimately you’ll need to decide for yourself about Shakespeare
and Macbeth.

I hope you enjoy it as much as I do!

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This Is NOT "Family Entertainment."


Young people
who know of Shakespeare
from "Shakespeare Gardens" and "Beautiful Tales for Children"
may be surprised by what happens in Macbeth.

  • When we first hear of Macbeth, he has just cut an enemy
    open ("unseamed") from belly button ("nave") to throat ("chops").
    The king shouts "Oh valiant cousin!  Worthy gentleman!"
  •  

  • At their party, a witch shows her friends
    the chopped-off thumb
    of a ship’s pilot wrecked on his way home.

    A witch who’s angry with a lady who was munching chestnuts and wouldn’t share
    them plans to get back at her by causing a nine-day storm
    to make her sailor husband miserable.  If the ship hadn’t been
    under divine protection, she’d kill everybody on board.
    Another witch offers to help with a bit of magical wind.
    The angry witch appreciates this and says, "You’re such a nice person."

  •  

  • Lady Macbeth, soliloquizing,
    prays to devils to possess her mind,
    turn the milk in her breasts into bile (!), and
    give her a man’s ability to do evil.
  •  

  • Lady Macbeth b-tches at her husband and ridicules his
    masculinity in order to make him commit murder.
    She talks about a smiling baby she once nursed and
    what it would have been like to smash its brains out — she would
    prefer this to having a husband who is unwilling to kill in cold blood.
    Read the passage again and think about exactly what Lady Macbeth
    is saying.
  •  

  • Lady Macbeth keeps a strong sedative in the
    house.  She doesn’t mention this to her husband
    even when they are planning a murder.  She just uses it.
    Attentive readers will
    suspect she has had to use on Macbeth in the past.
  •  

  • The Macbeths murder a sleeping man, their
    benefactor and guest, in cold blood, then
    launder their bloody clothes.  They smear blood on
    the drugged guards, then slaughter them to
    complete the frame-up.
  •  

  • Horses go insane and devour each others’ meat while they
    are still alive.
  •  

  • Everybody knows Macbeth murdered Duncan, but they
    make him king anyway.  Virtuous-talking Banquo ("Let’s
    have a thorough investigation sometime") acquiesces to murder,
    confirming what every teen knows about adult hypocrisy.
    (In Holinshed, Banquo is Macbeth’s accomplice.  Since Banquo was
    supposed to be the ancestor of Shakespeare’s own king James I,
    this wouldn’t really do.)
    Lennox plays both sides, and probably others do as well.
    Ross may have left Macduff’s castle
    to "maintain plausible deniability" just before
    the arrival of assassins
    who  he may have brought.
  •  

  • Macbeth sees Banquo’s ghost with twenty skull
    injuries, any one of which could be fatal.
    He goes psychiatric and screams "You can’t prove I did it."
    He goes on about how he used to think that once somebody’s
    brains were out, he’d stay dead.  But now
    he’ll need to keep people unburied until the
    crows eat the corpse like roadkill, etc., etc.
  •  

  • Witches deliver incantations ("Double, double,
    toil and trouble… bubble etc.") that can stand alongside any
    meaningless-inferential heavy-metal rock lyrics.
  •  

  • Among the ingredients  of a witches’ brew are
    cut-off human lips and a baby’s finger.  It’s not just any
    baby — it was a child delivered by a prostitute in a ditch,
    and that she strangled right afterwards.  (This kind of thing
    happens in our era, too.  No one knows how often.)
  •  

  • I’m an autopsy pathologist.
    I am very familiar with how
    human bodies decompose. 

    To show Macbeth his future, the witches add to
    the brew "grease that’s sweated from the murderer’s
    gibbet." 
    Would you like to 

    know what that means?
    The bodies of executed murderers were left
    hanging on the gallows / gibbet, often caged so their friends
    couldn’t take them away, until they were
    skeletonized, a process that takes weeks.  At about ten days
    in suitable weather, there are enough weak points in
    the skin that the bodyfat, which has liquefied,
    can start dripping through.  There will be a puddle
    of oil underneath the body.  This is for real.

  •  

  • Macduff’s precocious little son
    jokes with his mother about how there
    are more bad than good people in the world, and adds
    some wisecracks at the expense of her own possible morals.
      Moments later, the bad guys break in and
      stab him to death.
  •  

  • "Who would have thought the old man
    would have so much blood in him?"
    Lady Macbeth goes psychiatric (definitely) and commits
    suicide (maybe).  Hearing of this, Macbeth just says
    "She should have died hereafter", meaning "She
    should have picked a different time to die."
    He then launches into English literature’s
    most famous statement of the meaninglessness of life.
    He considers
    suicide, which the Romans considered the dignified
    thing to do under such circumstances.  But he decides
    it would be more satisfying to take as many people as
    possible with him.
    For the word "juggling",
    see I Henry VI 5.iv.

  •  

  • Macduff recounts how he was cut out of his mother’s
    uterus at the moment of her death.
  •  

  • Macbeth’s head ends up on a stick.  All teens know
    that severed heads
    were probably the first soccer balls.  If you
    are directing the play, this is a nice touch.
  •  

 

The Real Macbeth and His Times


Shakespeare got his story from Raphael Holinshed’s Chronicles.
It’s a fun read.  Click here
or here
to read Holinshed.
Holinshed spends a lot of time on the incident in which
Malcolm (who became a popular king) tests Macduff
by pretending to be mean when he is really nice.
Holinshed talks about the murder of King Duff by Donwald
in the century before Macbeth.  According to Holinshed,
Donwald
was nagged by his wife until he did the evil deed, and drugged the guards.
Shakespeare adapted this for Macbeth.

I’ve read that Holinshed’s section on Macbeth was largely derived from
the work of one Hector Boece, Scotorum Historiae ("Chronicles
of Scotland", 1526-7, translated from Latin into English by a John Bellenden in 1535).

It is evidently not online.
I’ve also
read that Boece’s sources include the Chronica gentis Scotorum
("Scotichronicon") by John of Fordun in the early 1500’s
(he also writes about William "Braveheart" Wallace and Robin
Hood), and Andrew of Wyntoun (1400’s).  John of Fordun seems to have
been the first to record
the story of the dialogue on kingship between Macduff and
Malcolm.  You may be able to find this book in an old university
library, but I could not find it online.
By the time the story
of Macbeth had reached Holinshed, it was already mostly fiction.

Here’s what we think really happened
with Macbeth and the other characters.

In a barbaric era, population pressures
made war and even the slaughter of one community
by another a fact of life.  Survival depended in having a
capable warlord to protect life and property, prevent
infighting, and protect from distant enemies. 
Groups of warlords would unite under the nominal leadership
of one king to promote their common interests and war on
more distant nations.   While people pretended to believe in
"the divine right of kings" and "lawful succession",
continuing effective leadership was assured by warlords killing
off the less capable family members.

 

The name "Macbeth" means "son of life",
and is a Christian name rather than a patronymic (hence the "b"
is lower case.)  Macbeth would have signed
his friends’ high school
yearbooks  "Macbeth mac Findlaech"
(McFinley).  There are MacBeth families in Scotland and Nova Scotia.

Macbeth’s father Findlaech was ruler ("mormaer",
high steward) of
Moray, at the northern tip of Scotland.
Macbeth’s mother’s name is unknown, but she
is variously said to have been the daughter of King Kenneth II
or the daughter of King Malcolm II.
In 1020, Findlaech
was killed and succeeded
by his nephew Gillacomgain.
In 1032, Gillacomgain and fifty other people were burned
to death in retribution for the murder of Findlaech,
probably by Macbeth and allies.

The historical Mrs. Macbeth was not named "Lady", but "Gruoch"
(GROO-och).  She was the daughter of a man named Biote (Beoedhe),
who was in turn the son of King Kenneth III "the Grim" who Malcolm II
had killed to become king.  (Some say
that Biote was the son
of Kenneth II instead.)  She was originally
married to Gillacomgain.
Their son was
Lulach the Simple (i.e., stupid;
no, Lady Macbeth didn’t brain him.)  After Macbeth
killed Gillacomgain, he took his widow Gruoch for his own wife,
and raised Lulach as
their stepson.  What a guy!

Centuries before Macbeth, King Kenneth MacAlpin,
"founded Scotland" by uniting
the Picts and the Scots, i.e., getting them to fight
foreigners rather than each other. 
In this era, Gaelic custom
required that the succession
go via the male line, and that if an heir was not
yet old enough to reign when the king died, the kingship
went to whatever male adult was next in line.
Since the succession was designed to ensure some stability
in a world of warlords and infighting, this made sense.
Kenneth MacAlpin’s male line continued to
King Malcolm II, who had at least two daughters but no sons,
and he killed the last member of the male McAlpin
line.
One daughter, Bethoc, (Holinshed calls her Beatrice)
married Abbanath Crinen, the secular hereditary abbot
of Dunkeld, and gave birth to Duncan.

In 1034, Malcolm II was murdered at Glamis by
his fellow warlords, possibly including
his grandson Duncan.  Then
Duncan managed to kill
his rivals and seize the throne. 
Duncan married Sibylla Bearsson and they
had Malcolm and Donald "Bain".

Sean Bean & Samantha Bond

Macbeth allied with
Thorfinn of Orkney, a Norseman.   Thorfinn was
the son of Sigurd the Fat and Bethoc,
apparently the same Bethoc who was Duncan I’s
father.  Thorfinn Sigurdsson is variously
called "Thorfinn I", "Thorfinn II", "Thorfinn Skull-Smasher",
"Thorfinn the Black", and "Thorfinn Raven-Feeder" (ravens eat
dead meat, including human corpses).
Thorfinn and Macbeth defeated and killed
Duncan I in a battle in Elgin in August 1040.
Thorfinn ruled northern Scotland, and Macbeth ruled southern
Scotland.  According to accounts, Macbeth was a good king,
strict but fair, for the first decade of his reign.

In 1054, Earl Siward of Northumberland,
who spirited Malcolm to England after Duncan’s death,
invaded Scotland.  According to the Anglo-Saxon chronicle,
he met and defeated Macbeth at the battle of Birnam
Wood / Dunsinane (July 27).  Most of Macbeth’s army
were killed, but Macbeth escaped.  Siward’s son
and nephew were also killed.  According to the Chronicles
of Ulster, Macbeth
continued to reign and was actually killed three years later
by Duncan’s son Malcolm.  Thorfinn II survived until
1064.

 

After Macbeth’s death, Lulach claimed the kingship
and had some supporters.
Lulach was ambushed and killed
a few months later by Malcolm.

Malcolm went on to reign as Malcolm III "Canmore" ("big head"
or "great ruler").
He took Thorfinn’s widow Ingibiorg for himself,
and they had a son Duncan, who later ruled as Duncan II.
After Ingibiorg died, Malcolm Canmore married Margaret, a
princess of the old English royal family.  Margaret
was a woman of great personal piety, and is now
honored as a saint
by Roman Catholics and Anglicans.  Three of their sons
became kings in their turns.

Malcolm Canmore was an aggressive and successful
warrior who invaded
England several times.  He was finally killed
in Northumberland.  The story is that
a treacherous soldier, pretending to hand him a
key on a spear, put the spear through his eye socket. 

Donald Bane,
was king twice (deposed for a time by Duncan II,
who he later defeated and killed).  Donald Bane
was finally defeated, imprisoned, and blinded
by King Edgar, one of the sons of Malcolm Canmore
and Margaret.

Boece, from a Roman
Catholic source

 

 

Banquo and Fleance Never Existed

Banquo by Christopher Dunne
Banquo
(Banquho, "Thane of Lochabar") and Fleance are supposed to be
the ancestors of the Stewarts (Stuarts), including some kings of Scotland
and later Scotland-and-England.  After Banquo’s
murder by Macbeth’s assassins,
Fleance  fled to North Wales,
and married one Nesta / Mary, daughter
of Gryffudth ap
Llewellyn, Prince of Wales. 
Walter
the Steward
, first
"High Steward of Scotland" and the
historical founder of the Stewart
line, was supposedly their son.

This is all bunk.  Walter’s real name was
"Walter Fitz Alan Dapifer", son of
Alan Dapifer, the sheriff of Shropshire.  The sheriff was the
son of some ordinary folks.

For some reason, perhaps to  give
his own Stuart king some more glamorous ancestors,
Boece made up Banquo and Fleance.
Check out the old Scottish genealogies online.  You’ll
find nobody matching their descriptions.

 

Joe Cochoit explains
how we know Banquo and Fleance are fictitious.

History of Macbeth

Mr. Jensen explains
explains how the riddle was solved, and the true ancestry of the Stuarts
became clear.  As usual, the truth is far more interesting than fiction.

According to Holinshed, Macbeth’s parents were
Sinel, Thane of Glamis (whose existence is otherwise
unattested) and a daughter of Malcolm II
named Doada (again, modern genealogies mention
no such person.)

 

Some Story Details

Lady Macbeth’s lie ‘What, in our house?’ would have
given the game away to even the stupidest detective,
but somehow no-one picks up on it.
 

If you’re here, you already know the plot of Macbeth, or
can find it from the links.  Here are some things to notice.

Wooton
The three witches remind English teachers of the three Fates
of Greek mythology and the three Norns of Norse mythology.
"Weird" (as in "weird sisters") used to mean "destiny" or "fate".
Perhaps in an older version they were.

At the beginning, Duncan I is not leading his army.
This is a good way for a king to get himself replaced quickly.

A blood-drenched captain reports that Macbeth and Banquo have
just defeated the rebellious Macdonwald (MacDonald, E-I-E-I-O).
Ross and Angus then enter and announce that "Bellona’s bridegroom,
lapped in proof" has defeated the Thane of Cawdor and the Norwegians
at Fife.  Holinshed credits Macbeth with both of these victories,
but let’s think.  Macbeth cannot have fought two battles 500 miles
apart at the same time, and in the next scene he knows nothing
of the Thane of Cawdor’s disloyalty. 
Who is thane of Fife?  If "lapped in proof"
is a mistake for "brave Macduff", then the whole scene makes more
sense, and Shakespeare introduces the conflict between the two men
early.  Duncan gives Cawdor’s title and property to Macbeth.

Malcolm was not yet of age, and Duncan’s declaring him heir was an impediment
to Macbeth’s claim on the throne via his mother.  Holinshed
points this out.

Nothing is what it seems.  This begins with Macbeth’s beautiful castle and gracious hostess.
When Duncan talks about the nice air and the nice birds at Macbeth’s castle,
Banquo — very much the butt-kisser — immediately agrees in a way
that will make the king think that Banquo thinks that the king is a good
observer of nature.

Notice that on the morning of the day Banquo gets
murdered, Macbeth asks him three times where he is going
and whether his son will be with him.  Banquo should have
been more suspicious.

My cyberfriend Kyle Reynolds wrote to remind me that most (all?)
of the actual murders occur off-stage, since without any
between-act curtains, the story had to be written so that somebody
would remove a dead body
from the stage.  Thanks.

 

People suspect Malcolm and Donalbain because they
ran away.
No white Bronco though.

        – Rodger Burnich (link is now down)

 

The Background


Around 1950, scholars noticed and argued the obvious.  Macbeth
was written specifically to be performed for, and to please,
King James I.

James Stuart was already King James VI of Scotland when
Queen Elizabeth’s death
made him James I of England as well.  In the late 1500’s,
Scotland had a witch craze, with many people convicted of
wicked secret practices without physical evidence.
James I, who believed the witch hysteria, wrote
a book about the supposed hidden world of
wicked witches, entitled Demonology.

The witch persecutions were a monument to human
stupidity.  James may have really believed that there was a secretive
sect devoted to malicious evil.  Or he may have been just another
cynical politician trying to unite people against a common
imagined enemy with different cultural practices.
Perhaps the truth is somewhere in the middle.
Whatever indigenous/pagan beliefs and practices
may really have existed in Macbeth’s Scotland,
the "witches" of the play are obviously there for their role in
Macbeth’s fictionalized story.

Stephen Greenblatt’s "Will in the World" (highly recommended,
a book about Shakespeare’s times and how he must have been
influenced by contemporary events) explains some puzzling features
of our play.

  • Henry Garnet, a Jesuit and priest who was implicated in the Gunpowder
    Plot, wrote A Treatise of Equivocation about how to
    mislead and answer ambiguously under oath.  He was executed.
    He may be the "equivocator
    that could swear in both the scales against either scale,
    who committed treason enough for God’s sake, yet could not
    equivocate to heaven."
  •  

  • A Matthew Gwynn held a pageant to greet James I, in which three boy-actors
    played Sibyls and prophecied his future greatness and mentioned Banquo.
  •  

  • James supposedly told John Harrington that before the execution of his
    mother, Mary Queen of Scots, there was an apparition of "a bloody head
    dancing in the air".
  •  

  • An accused witch named Agnes Thompson, who had been tortured,
    told James and his court that on Halloween of 1590, two hundred witches
    had sailed into the town in sieves.
  •  

  • In his book on witches, James wrote that they would give deceptive and double-meaning
    prophecies.
  •  

 

Macbeth deals with the fictional
ancestors of the Stuart line (Banquo, Fleance) and presents Banquo
more favorably than did the play’s sources.  (In Holinshed,
Banquo is Macbeth’s active accomplice.)  The procession of kings
ends with a mirror (probably held by Banquo rather than
another king, as in some notes.)
James could  see himself, thus becoming part of the action.
Macbeth
says he sees more kings afterwards.  Shakespeare has turned the
nature spirits of his sources into witches for the
witch-hunting king’s enjoyment.

 

 

Evil?  Predestination?

U. Oregon
You may be asked, "What is the nature of evil in
"Macbeth"?  Again, you’ll need to decide for yourself.

Shakespeare only uses the word "evil(s)" in the England
scene, and only uses it to refer to bad deeds and bad character
traits.  (The "King’s Evil" for which Edward touches people
was scrofula, a mycobacterial infection of the cervical lymph nodes.)

Some people will decide that the Macbeths are victims of supernatural
forces beyond anybody’s control.  Other people will decide that the talk
about predestination simply reflects the folk-tale, or that the Macbeths’
era and/or their outlook on life guarantee that something really bad will happen
to them.

Perhaps despite the supernatural trappings of witches and talk about
devils, "evil" for Shakespeare is nothing more or less than
bad human habits and behaviors.

 

Are You a Man?


Sadowski poster

As you go through the play, look for the repeated theme of
"What is a real man?"  Like nowadays,
there is no consensus.

 

  • Lady Macbeth wants to lose her femininity so she
    can be cold-blooded and
    commit murder like a man does.
  •  

  • Macbeth, having second thoughts,
    tells his wife that it’s unmanly
    to murder your benefactor while he is asleep.  Lady Macbeth gets
    abusive and tells him this will make him more of a man.
  •  

  • Macbeth flatters his wife, saying she has such
    "undaunted mettle" that she won’t have any
    baby girls, only baby boys.
  •  

  • Macbeth, perhaps having learned from his wife,
    gets two men to commit his murder by insulting
    their masculinity.
  •  

  • Malcolm tells Macduff to bear his sorrow like a man.
    Macduff replies he must also feel it like a man.
  •  

  • Siward’s son becomes a man in his father’s eyes
    the day he falls in battle

   
There are others.
You can get a good paper out of this.

 

 

Who Was the Third Murderer?

 

People have had lots of fun trying to figure out who the Third
Murderer really is.  It’s evidently somebody who knows Banquo and
Fleance.  The usual suspects include Macbeth, Lady Macbeth,
or a servant or thane.  All these people are supposed to show
up momentarily at Macbeth’s dinner party, without bloodstains.

My ingenious cyberfriend Tanner Campbell
suggested it is one of the witches.
She can blow out a torch by supernatural means, and their
participation could assure
the survival of Fleance and thus the success of her prophecy.
 

Shakespeare actually needed to set the scene for a murder.
He does not have a modern filmmaker’s repertoire.  (Macbeth’s
mutterings would be today’s voice-overs.)  So to set the scene,
he had to use dialogue.

Macbeth pays spies in each of his warlords’ castles, so he has
other people available.  It seems reasonable that he would send
somebody knowledgeable to help two disenfranchised persons (not professional
hit men) kill a mighty warrior and his teenaged son.  It is also
unlikely that he would want to introduce the assassins to each
other ahead of time.

The Third Murderer does not come back with the others to collect his
fee, because he was probably played by one of the minor actors who
were party guests and would need to be changing costume.

In other words, you will have to decide for yourself!

 Is Macbeth bad luck?

 

Producing Macbeth is
supposed to be unlucky.  Fires, falls, and weapon injuries
have plagued past productions.
Superstition requires
those involved in productions not to say the play’s
title, but rather "The Scottish
Play".  There are silly urban legends about the boy actor who
first played Lady Macbeth getting sick and Shakespeare
having to fill in, and Queen Anne closing the theaters
after people thought the deviltry of the play had
caused a bad storm.

Some people think that the play’s vision of evil,
with witches, demonic familiars, and so forth explains
the bad luck.  You will have to decide for yourself.

    The
    Curse

    Ivanov
    on theatrical superstitions.  The accidents are more common because
    the stage is dark, there’s fire scenes,
    the fog machine makes the stage slippery, there’s more wielding of
    crude weapons by more people, and so forth.

     

 

A correspondent in 2002 reminded me that failing acting companies
would produce "Macbeth", which was very popular, as a last-ditch,
not-always-successful way of staying in business. 

A correspondent in 2003
told me that saying the name of the play was bad luck but that people
avert this by a prayer/apology to the "Muse of the Theater", i.e., Melpomene
(mell-POMM-eh-neh or –eeny; portfolio is tragedy, Thalia is comedy).
"Did the Greeks really believe in their mythology?"  Who knows?
If you would like a different counterspell, let me suggest this.
Those wishing to participate join hands in a circle, and one member says,
"May those who work on this production, and those who see it,
be guided to choose peace over violence, love over vanity,
and hope over despair."  All say, "Amen."
 

Delaware Theater production

 

A Rooted Sorrow


Previous stage villains, notably Shakespeare’s Aaron and Richard III,
do not reach the Macbeths’ depth.  Aaron gloats on his misbehavior,
and Richard acts the villain until the end.
Your instructor may talk about Macbeth beginning as a good and fine
man, possessing the tragic flaw of ambition,
upsetting the divinely-ordained natural order, and so
forth.  You’ll need to decide for yourself about this.
On the one hand, the other characters talk about Duncan
as being "meek", very likable and kindly, and so forth.
And people do seem to be dismayed over the murder.
On the other hand,
Macbeth seems — from the play’s bloody beginning –
to be one of many thugs
in a society in which power is gained and maintained by
killing other thugs, and where loyalty is at best provisional.
Lady Macbeth doesn’t seem to think
that there’s anything really unusual about the idea of
murdering a guest, and she assumes it’s occurred to her husband
as well.  You could get a good paper by arguing one side, or both –
does Shakespeare believe that there is a deep morality underpinning
human society, or does he not believe this, or does he let you decide?

Of course, the Macbeths end up miserable.
They do not suffer primarily from conscience
(which is not much in evidence in any character, though
Malcolm at least claims to live clean to test Macduff).
They do not suffer from
fear of the afterlife (which Lady Macbeth b-tches out of her husband;
he talks about giving up his "eternal jewel", i.e., his soul,
to the devil simply as an accomplished fact).
Their fear of human
retribution merely drives them to additional murders.

Shakespeare’s insight goes far deeper.
So far as I know, this is the first work in English that focuses on
the
isolation and meaninglessness that result from selfishness
and cruelty.

By the end, Lady Macbeth dissociates
from the horror of what she has become.  Shakespeare uses insanity
as a metaphor for actually gaining insight in "King Lear" and maybe
elsewhere.   Lady Macbeth’s insanity is really nothing more than
her realizing the nature and consequences of
the horrible thing she has done.  Macbeth verbally
abuses and bullies
the people who he needs to defend him (and who are
abandoning him), while reflecting to himself on
the emptiness and futility of it all.  Of course,
the couple no longer have a relationship, and Macbeth
is merely annoyed when she dies.

Kids… this is true to life.  Try to live better than the Macbeths did.

 

What Does It All Mean?

Cawdor castle
Fair is foul and foul is fair. 
In Macbeth, things are seldom what they
seem, and we often don’t know what’s really
happening.  The play is full of ambiguity and double
meanings, starting with the prophecies.
The day is extremely foul (weather) and
extremely fair (MacDonald has been disemboweled.)
Banquo is not so happy, yet much happier.
Is the dagger a hallucination, or a supernatural phantom?

Ask the same question about Banquo’s ghost.
Does the bell summon Duncan "to heaven or to hell"?
One of Duncan’s son’s called out "Murder!" in his
sleep, but the other one laughed, mysteriously
pleased at his father’s death.  Which was which?

Liquor "equivocates" with the porter’s sexuality.
Does Macbeth say "Had I but died an hour…." because
he is really sorry (i.e.,
sad about his moral deterioration and/or realizing he’s getting
himself into trouble),
or just overacting?
Does Lady Macbeth really faint?  ("Perhaps she is actually a person
of more sensitive feelings than she lets on.")
Or does she simply pretend to faint to
divert attention from her husband’s overacting?

Who’s the third murderer?
Is Ross playing both sides?
Does Lady Macbeth commit suicide or die of cardiac complications?
There’s a lot of talk about clothing — clothes give you
an identity and also conceal who you are.
These mysteries add to the literal fog on-stage.

Shakespeare chose his subject matter and some plot
details to please James I.  But as always, his deeper purpose
seems to be to show us our own lives and make us think.

The key question that Shakespeare seems to ask is this.
Is human society fundamentally amoral, dog-eat-dog?
If so, then Macbeth is right, and human life
itself is meaningless and tiresome.

Or do the hints of a better life such as King Edward’s ministry,
Malcolm’s clean living,
the dignified death of the contrite traitor, and the doctor’s
prescription for pastoral care,
display
Shakespeare’s Christianity and/or humanism?

It’s a dark play.  The light of goodness seems still fairly dim.
But evil always appeals more to the imagination, while in real
life, good is much more fun.

Is the message of Macbeth one of despair, or of hope?

I don’t know.  You decide.

Citing this page:

 

To include this page in a bibliography, you may use this format:
Friedlander ER (1999) Enjoying "Macbeth" by William Shakespeare  Retrieved Dec. 25, 2003 from http://www.pathguy.com/macbeth.htm

 

For Modern Language Association sticklers, the name of the site itself
is "The Pathlogy Guy" and the Sponsoring Institution or Organization
is Ed Friedlander MD.

 

 

 

Links

 

My link is now down for psychoanalytic studies of Macbeth.
You can get the articles from a medical library or by interlibary loan.
Today’s psychiatrists will almost all tell you that Freud’s actual
contribution
was taking emotions seriously, listening and trying to understand.
Much of his "theory" is only of historical interest, but you might decide
that some of the "psychoanalytic" writings are just common sense described
in unfamiliar terms.

Homework Resources

 

Real History and Shakespeare’s Sources

    Rewriting (and falsifying) history for the benefit of
    "disenfranchised persons" is very popular today.
    You can supply plenty of examples from the "political
    correctness" movement.  (Do you remember the "Beethoven was black"
    fiasco as Stanford?)
    To cite a benign example, the narrator
    of Braveheart begins saying in effect, "You may say
    I’m lying, but remember it’s the winners who write history."  He goes
    on to have William Wallace, who was executed in 1305, partying with
    Queen Isabella, who didn’t come to England until 1309. 
    Shakespeare
    may have subtitled his own Henry VIII "All Is True", to distinguish
    it from docudramas like his own Macbeth.

    Michael
    Davidson
    on the historical Macbeth 
    The Historical Macbeth

     

            There are scrappy bits of information on Macbeth’s actual reign.
    In 1045, Duncan’s father Crinan was killed in "A battle between the Scots
    themselves", (Annals of Ulster) and this event probably represented an
    attempt to oust Macbeth. In 1050, Macbeth is reported to have "scattered
    money like seed to the poor at Rome." (Marianus Scottus) From 1054
    onwards, Macbeth was probably occupied in a struggle with Duncan’s son
    Malcolm to retain the throne. Earl Siward of Northumbria invaded Scotland
    in 1054, probably with the intention of placing Duncan’s son Malcolm on
    the throne in an attempt to effect a friendly Scotland. Siward inflicted a
    costly defeat on the Scots; Siward’s son and nephew were both killed in
    the battle. (Anglo-Saxon Chroncle) In 1058, the Annals of Ulster and other
    sources record Macbeth’s death at the hands of Malcolm. Macbeth was first
    succeeded by his stepson Lulach, the son of Grouch and Gillacomgain. He
    had a reign ranging from four to seven months according to the sources,
    until he in turn was also killed by Malcolm, who then took the kingship.
    Descendants of Lulach survived into the twelfth century, and continued
    their hostility to the descendants of Duncan until the death of Lulach’s
    grandson in 1130, which probably extinguished the line of the rulers of Moray.

     

    Macduff’s
    Cross
    — ancient monument in Fife
    The
    Historical MacDuff — from Clan MacDuff, which reports that
    our MacDuff was just called "Duff".  Link is now down.
    The
    Historical Macduff [link is now down] — According to this source, the first
    Earl of Fife was one Ethelred, so designated in 1057, shortly after Macbeth
    was finally killed.  Some sources claim he is a son of Malcolm Canmore;
    others say this is a monk’s error (which it seems to be) and he is indeed
    our MacDuff, and that the Saxon title of Earl was his
    reward for meritorious service (i.e., helping get rid of Macbeth.)’

    The
    Historical
    Macduff
    — This source repeats the (probably wrong) story
    that the first Earl of Fife was Ethelred, and that he was a son
    of Malcolm.  The page is most interesting for its description of
    the famous descendant
    Gillemichael:

     

     

         According to tradition [Shakespeare's]
         Macduff lost his first wife by the cruelty
         of Macbeth, but after the restoration he married again and was
         succeeded by his son Duffayon, [Second] Earl of Fife, who in turn was succeeded
         by Constantine and Gillemichael.  Gillemichael was witness to several
         charters by King David to the Monastery of Dumfermline, including the
         foundation charter of the abbey of Holyroodhouse in 1128. He died about
         1139 and was succeeded in the Earldom by his eldest son Duncan who
          vanished on the tide of time while his second son Hugo succeeded
          to the lands of Markinch and other lands later a part of the estate
          of Wemyss.

     

    Macduff’s Castle, which is now in ruins and is the older castle of the
    family, is located in East Wemyss. It was the seat of Gillemichael Macduff
      from whom it got its name.  Today the ruins of the Macduff Castle
      primarily consist of two square towers, and portions of the walls of the
       fortress, on the eminence overlooking the firth.  But it was at one time
        a powerful maritime fortress for the Earls of Fife.  The site of this
        fortress is described as such as would commend itself to the military
        engineer of the medieval day.  It sat on an isolated and steep rocky
        eminence which rose from the water’s edge almost abrupt to the height
        of a hundred feet.  Its position provided for a view to survey both
        the wide Firth of Forth, and far inland.  It had the additional
        protection of strong natural caves beneath.

     

    I am waiting to find Clan MacDuff’s new page.
    Curiously, "Clan Duff originated from the Royal Scotto-Pictish line,
    of which Queen Gruoch stood as its senior representative" (!)
    "Duff" means "black", i.e., dark-complected, as in Shakespeare’s sonnets
    and descriptions of Beethoven and Pushkin.
    So far as I know, no radical Afrocentrist
    has claimed "MacDuff was black".
    Clan MacDuff.  Link is now down.  "Clan
    Macdubhich". "Dubh", dark-complected or "black", is Gaelic
    from the Indo-European.  This site reports that MacDuff, Thane of Fife,
    refused to help build Macbeth’s castle, saying he would "not be ridden
    with a snaffle".  Macbeth got angry, and MacDuff wet to England
    to encourage Malcolm come back and take the throne.  Upon returning,
    MacDuff found his wife
    and several of her children murdered by Macbeth.  MacDuff drove Macbeth
    from Dunsinane "into the hills above the Dee River, where MacDuff
    slew the Pretender on a slope above Lumfannaine, and carried his head
    to Prince Malcolm." I could not find any independent confirmation of
    this appealing legend, or where Lumfannaine might be.

    Charles A Harper graciously sent me his photos of "Macduff’s castle" and Wemyss caves:


    Other correspondents have told me that

     

    • The locals say that our Macduff’s real castle was actually located
      in a village now called Kennoway, was made of wood, and is now
      represented only by an earthmound ("motte")
    •  

    • The locals say that Macduff fled to England from the town of Earlsferry
    •  

    A Clan MacDuff website, which is now down,
    mentions that the Wemyss family claims descent from our Macduff,
    and that according to legend,
    Macduff escaped from Macbeth through three miles of natural
    caves.  Supposedly a MacDuff would crown the king of Scotland because
    of MacDuff’s victory over Macbeth.

    The Stewart Society
    nothing here on their fictitious ancestors Banquo and Fleance
    Margaret
    Scottish Clans

    Macbeth
    Sources

    Birnam Wood
    outstanding Macbeth site
    Clicknotes Macbeth
    good site for students
    Roanoke — student-made site, very good
    Lynch Multimedia — re-told as a storybook which even young children could enjoy.  Highly recommended.
    The Land of Macbeth — Macbeth tourism, with good history
    Cawdor Castle — not Macbeth’s home, it was not built until the 1400’s

    Theater History
    Animated Macbeth — the study questions are better than the "animation"
    ThinkQuest
    The
    Anglo-Saxon Chronicle
    — reference to Siward’s
    defeat of Macbeth at Dunsinane.  Siward Junior’s real name was Osborn.
    Lincoln, Macbeth, and the Moral
    Imagination
    — from Humanitas.   Lincoln was especially fond of the
    play.  A very good man like Lincoln
    can wrestle with the same issues of whether life means
    anything as can a very bad man like Macbeth.    Thanks to Ben Buckles of Topeka
    for  letting me know this interesting fact about Lincoln.

    Shakespeare Illustrated

    medievalscotland.org — lots about the era, including plenty about how the Macbeths
    probably lived, dressed, ate, etc., etc.
    Book of Deer — illuminated manuscript
    which will give you a picture of the times a little bit before Macbeth
    Lothene — a group of people
    who reconstruct Duncan’s era

    History has added to the ambiguity of the play.  Nobody know where
    Macbeth’s castle
    really was.

     

Productions

Saint Louis prodution

Olivier as Macbeth


Fun

    Comedy: The
    Farnsdale Avenue Housing Estate Townswomen’s Guild Dramatic Society’s Production
    of Macbeth

    Chao Mugger’s clever spoof "How
    to Stab Kings and Injure People" is no longer online.  Please let me know
    if it ever reappears.

    Scots on the Rocks — parody

    Highland Dancing
    according to legend, introduced by Malcolm Canmore’s saintly queen,
    Margaret
    Dunsinane
    is a standard type of lathed doorknob.
    Dorothy Dunnett’s King Hereafter
    is a historical novel.  She identifies Macbeth and Thorfinn.
    Shakespeare Cats

    Duncan
    Macbeth is wrestling champion.  Link is now down.


More Help for Students

My favorite of the movie versions is Roman Polanski’s dark and
(in Macbeth’s time) accurate vision
of a world in which murder is normal means of achieving power.
Other movie adaptations include "Joe Macbeth" and "Men of Respect" — both
gangster tales, a contemporary version from India called
Maqbool (link is down),
and "Throne of Blood", a classic samurai version.

 

Chasseriau, Macbeth and the Three Witches           One very clever student pointed out to me that Bottom’s speech
about a tyrant describes Macbeth, and Macbeth’s speech about
"a poor player" describes Bottom!

Another very clever student pointed out to me that at the beginning of the play,
Macbeth is mopey and quiet and has hallucinations, and Lady Macbeth
is verbally abusive.  At the end of the play, Lady Macbeth is mopey
and quiet and has hallucinations, and Macbeth is verbally abusive.

One easy theme is that of sleep. 
Macbeth, for whom life is a painful
meaningless enterprise, speaks of Duncan sleeping peacefully in
death "after life’s fitful fever"; part of
Macbeth’s own punishment is to be an
insomniac, and Lady Macbeth’s is to sleepwalk.

 

 

 

You already know that most (not all) "clan" tartans are inventions
from the 1800s (when Sir Walter Scott’s novels became
popular).  Whatever the historical Macbeth may have worn,
they are still fun.  See scottishtartans.org
for more information.

The MacBeth Tartan




Two Macduff Tartans
 

The MacAlpin Tartan

 

One of the Many MacDonald Tartans

 

A Ross Hunting Tartan

 

The Lennox Tartan

 Hi, My Name’s Ed!
Edward has long been the most popular of the "Ed" names (Edwin, Edgar, and
Edmund are all still in use; all are of medieval English origin.)
The name because popular because of Edward
the Confessor, a good man whose saintliness (celebrated in Macbeth),
contrasts with his Scotch counterpart’s nastiness.  William the
Conqueror put the "saint" spin on Edward, from whom he traced
his pretended rightful claim to the English throne.

In the year I was born, "Edward" was the eighth most common
name for a baby boy.  Today it is fairly uncommon.
Winnie-the-Pooh’s first name is Edward.
Being an Edward, it’s fun to ask
other people with "Ed" on their nametags which they are.
I think that "Ed" is the shortest name by which a male in the US
is likely to go.

I met my first "Ned", an older
nickname for any "Ed" name, online in late 2002.  Edmund Moriarty, who was
playing
the cream-faced loon at West End, pointed out an alternative
explanation for why "Macbeth" is supposed to be bad luck.  The play was very
popular in the 1800’s, and a theater company that was about to fail would
produce it in a last-ditch attempt to survive.

 

Edward the Confessor


Macbeth at Rice

 

    Macbeth, in a manner most flighty,
    Aspired to the high and the mighty.
      Urged on by his wife,
      He stuck in his knife,
    And the blood got all over his nightie!

        — Author Unknown!

Rule 9: Don’t … DON’T … nag! — Dale Carnegie on marriage

 

 

Shakespeare’s Sonnets. 
A remarkable sequence even by today’s standards.  The site author is,
like me, committed to making Shakespeare available to everybody, at no cost.
Enjoy.

shakespeare.about.com
lots of good contemporary essays.

Literature Classics — lots of
texts and essays.
Searchable Text
Absolute Shakespeare.  Good introductions!
No Fear — text along with 21st-century English translation

Teachers: Click here
to begin your search for online essays intended for would-be plagiarists.
"Dishonesty was your tragic flaw, kid!"   Good luck.

 

Sean Bean & Samantha Bond

 

To the best of my knowledge, all the links
on my literature pages are to free sites.  In August 2000, the operator of
the large for-profit help-with-homework online Shakespeare site offered to
buy these pages out "for a price in the low four figures."  I refused,
and the site owner replied that "I wish you would just close down the
domain and spare everybody from a lot of wasted time.  It’s a shame."
This site will always remain free, to help everybody enjoy the
works that I have, myself, enjoyed so much.  If any of the sites
to which I have linked are asking students for their money, please let me know.
 

 

 

 



Talking To Willliam Shakespeare — archive of questions from students.  Nicely done.
Words and phrases by Shakespeare — under development

Polansky's Macbeth

 "What is there about Shakespeare that would interest a contemporary
American?"

Visitors send me this question from time to time.

If being a "contemporary American" means being focused on
dirty TV sitcoms, greed, casual sex, big-money sports,
shout-and-pout grievance-group
politics, televangelism, professional wrestling, crybabies, slot machines,
postmodernism,
political action committees,
and "war on drugs" profiteering…
  then the answer is probably
"Nothing."

If a contemporary American can still ask, "Is life
just a meaningless exercise in status-seeking,
or is there anything to give us hope
that morality is real?"
— then the answer is maybe that
"Shakespeare deals with basic human issues."
 

 

 

 

Antony & Cleopatra — just getting started
Hamlet
Julian of Norwich
King Lear
Julian of Norwich
La Belle Dame Sans Merci

A Midsummer Night’s Dream
Moby Dick
Oedipus the King — including something about the "tragic hero" business and "predestination"
The Book of Thel

 


    If you are asked to write about Shakespeare’s "tragic heroes" or
    their "tragic flaw" or predestination
    or whatever, help yourself to my skeptical
    notes on Aristotle.

    You may find it more rewarding to focus on something at once
    more obvious and more profound.
    Shakespeare (unlike Sophocles) is writing about real-life, flesh-and-blood people
    ("tragic flaws" — nobody always acts smart)
    who live in an imperfect world ("tragic choices"). 

    In Shakespeare, our sympathies are usually divided among the characters.
    For this reason, Aristotle’s thoughts on tragedy (i.e., people
    are imperfect)
    really seem more useful in discussing Shakespeare than in
    discussing Sophocles.

    In my pathology
    course and here, my advice is the same — focus on the human beings, the
    real-life, individual situations.

     

Prometheus Bound

The Knight’s Tale
The Seven Against Thebes
The Tyger
Timbuctoo
Twelfth Night

 I’ve received several requests for my thoughts on Othello,
and wish I had time to put something together.  For now, if you’re asked to
write on the play, here are two ideas.

(1) Look at the short story that provided
the plot
(click here
or
here),

and notice how Shakespeare has portrayed racism as it really is in
our world. Ordinary decent folks (i.e., the Venetian government) care only
who a person is and what that person can do.  They consider Brabantio
a jerk for accepting a person of another race as a friend but not as a son-in-law.
  Iago, who for whatever reason
has a chip on his shoulder, spews racial venom for his own dark reasons.
Desdemona is originally frightened by someone who looks different, but
quickly learns to love that person so that race become indifferent.

(2) It is very common for special-forces operatives who return to
civilian life and/or who try to sustain a marriage to have terrible
difficulties.  Those who are
successful deserve our special admiration.  Too many become
terribly confused and end up in self-destructive behaviors,
both loving and hating.  It’s one of our world’s
strangest ironies that romantic love is more treacherous and incomprehensible
than war.

Marin Shakespeare Company

Shylock and Jessica
Likewise, it’ll be a while before I can put anything online about "The
Merchant of Venice."  I do want to take a minute to ask people
considering Shakespeare’s presentation of Shylock to consider his era.
In all but Shakespeare’s earliest plays, our sympathies are always
divided.
Shakespeare’s English
contemporaries would seldom or never see a real Jew (they had been expelled
from England in 1280), and
the "stage Jew" of the time was an evil, comic figure.
Nevertheless,  Shakespeare is the first writer to present a Jew as a human
being.  And it is easy to understand
why Shylock is bitter and angry.  Even at the beginning,
the protagonists of the play talk trash
to him simply because he is a Jew, obviously without even thinking.
It’s impossible not to notice this.  They invite Shylock to
their party simply so that his daughter can rob him,
and afterwards they are only amused when his feelings are trampled.

The play is actually about anger –
and Shakespeare has chosen a Jew to represent somebody who is right
to be angry.  This is more than a progressive choice — it must have taken
a great deal of courage.
Defending  himself, Shylock points out the evils of slavery, which
the Jews did not practice but which was accepted at the time by some
Christians.  (It was illegal in Shakespeare’s England but would soon
re-emerge in the colonies.)

The most famous speech ("The quality of mercy…")
anticipates what I’ve found to be Shakespeare’s greatest theme, i.e.,
in a godless universe, our only hope is to be kind to one another.
No matter what your grievance is, why not be the first to
take the brave step to end the stupid hatreds that darken our world? 

 
Shakespeare’s "Romeo and Juliet" may have been spoiled for you as required reading in high
school, and/or by parodies of the balcony scene and/or a bad (left-wing, right-wing) college 
"Western Civ" course.  Think: The play’s about godawful teenaged murder-suicide.  (Juliet is 14, 
Romeo 16.)  Shakespeare’s plot-source was a warning to teenagers to obey their parents.  The 
themes of the play, which were pretty-much new with Shakespeare and very radical in his time, are 
(1) young people ought to be allowed to marry for love, not just whoever their parents choose for 
them; (2) young people’s tragedies likely result from their parents’ stupidity and meanness; (3) love 
matures people, and gives dignity, meaning, and beauty even in the worst of circumstances.  By
the way, did you notice that Papa Capulet is an old guy ("past [his] dancing days",
thirty years since he was "in a mask"), but Mama Capulet
was pregnant with Juliet at age 13.  In other words, she was the old
lecher’s forced child-bride and she is setting up the same thing for Juliet.
Forced marriage is still common (and the typical cause for a young girl’s suicide)
in much of our world.  Did you also notice that the Capulets are not terribly
surprised to find Juliet dead on her wedding day?
The fact that forced marriage is illegal in the United States and England
may be due, at least in part, to the fact that we listened
when Shakespeare showed us who we are.  For this, I’m thankful.

 



I’m Ed.  I’m an MD, a
pathologist in Kansas City,
a mainstream Christian.
a modernist, a
skydiver, an adventure gamer,
the world’s busiest free
internet physician
,
and a man who still
enjoys books and ideas.

 

 

Have you a weird sister?  An odd brother? — Richard Armour
on Macbeth

I hope you like Macbeth, and that I’ve been of some help.

Visit my home page
E-mail me
Brown University,
Department of English
— my home base, 1969-1973.

    Fellow English majors — Okay, okay, I know the commas are "supposed"
    to go inside the
    quotation marks and parentheses. This became standard to protect
    fragile bits of movable type. My practice lets me know I’m the one
    who’s
    typed a particular document. And yes, I know it’s supposed to be "I
    talk plainly."

 

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Teens:
Stay away from drugs, work yourself extremely hard in class or
at your trade, play sports if and only if you like it,
and get out of abusive relationships by any means.
If the grown-ups who support you are "difficult", act
like you love them even if you’re not sure that you do.
It’ll help you and them.
The best thing anybody can say about you is, "That kid likes to
work too hard and isn’t taking it easy like other young people."  Health and friendship.

"Dead Rock Stars" Video

Lady Macbeth may or may not have taken her
own life.  But suicide is almost certainly a bad idea.
Among young people who made serious attempts and
failed, 99% said a year later that they are glad they failed.

 

 

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POSTSCRIPT: Witch Hunts Continue Today

Shakespeare changed the folklore-creatures of his
sources into wicked witches, both to please his audience
(beginning with King James) and to give a background
of secretive spiritual evil to a play on the same subject.

You’ll be told variously that witches were women
helping each other in an oppressive, male-dominated
society, that witches were members of a nature cult, that
witches were bad people seeking supernatural power,
and that there were no witches.  Perhaps the truth
is a combination of these ideas.  You’ll need to decide for yourself
on the slim evidence.  But the consequences to real human
beings was disastrous.

During the witch crazes of the Reformation and early
modern times,
good people
abandoned common sense in their moral zeal,
cynical politicians played on the public’s fears,
and the lives of innocent people were destroyed. 
The hysteria was sustained by the government’s methods –
accused people were offered the opportunity to confess
and perhaps implicate others to escape punishment
(torture, death) themselves.

It still happens.   It will continue as long as people
like to believe stupid, ugly lies that make them feel morally
superior.

Today’s accused "witch"
is given a choice between confessing (to being
a child molester, to being a racist, or to being a
rapist or violent abuser) and "getting counselling",
or facing huge legal bills and the likelihood of
imprisonment.  This happens even when there
is physical evidence to prove the accused person’s innocence.  I have
testified as an expert pathologist
in three trials in which the prosecution clearly
knew the defendant was innocent, but held a trial
for political reasons.  (Not in Kansas City.)

 

    Some of my work.

    "Facilitated
    communication for autistic children"
    .
    Even the original promoters knew it was bunk,
    but promoted it in the hope that it would help the public understand
    that kids with autism, cerebral palsy, and so forth have a complex
    inner life (Journal of  Autism and Developmental Disorders
    21: 561, 1991.)  It’s easy to test, and it’s flunked
    again and again.    Current work…

     

      Child Abuse and Neglect 20: 103, Feb. 1996.  St. George’s,
      London.  A "how to cover your butt" paper when some activist reports
      child abuse based on "facilitated communication".

      Journal of Autism and Developmental Disorders 26: 7, 1996

      Journal of Autism and Developmental Disorders 26: 9, 1996 (Elwyn
      Inc., debunks
      a previous hoax)
      Journal of Autism and Developmental Disorders 26: 19, 1996
      York, Ontario

      Journal of Autism and Developmental Disorders 26: 497, Oct. 1996;
      Illinois State

      Journal of Autism and Developmental Disorders 27: 43, Feb. 1997;
      Princeton

      Journal of Autism and Developmental Disorders 27: 571, Oct.
      1997 (Japan)
      Child Abuse & Neglect 22: 1027, 1998.  "Its proponents’
      resistance to allowing the technique’s validation relying on the
      paradigm of normal science has resulted in its broad dissemination
      without support."  Anti-science philosophy and postmodernism
      ruin the lives of innocent people.

    Two colleagues have had their homes destroyed by the
    false
    memories fiasco, which is now a laughing stock in the
    funny papers.
    But there’s nothing funny about the many thousands of people
    who were falsely accused, including the saintly
    Cardinal
    Bernardin
    .

    Children can be coached to say anything.  The
    Fells Acre Ritual Abuse Case
    is one of about one hundred such
    absurd prosecutions in recent times.

In addition
to the shocking injustice, this kind of thing has
tended to discredit
genuine, honest efforts to protect children,
treat mental illness,
and promote harmony among the races.

It’s still a wicked world.
 

 

 

For “the lame excuse of a guy …That you ARE”

February 16th, 2007 by allyevejeff

Warning: This post is only dedicated to one person "YOU KNOW WHO YOU ARE" so if you think I’m not talking about you don’t read.
But if your curiosity gets the better of you go ahead don’t blame me though it’s your decision to read my blog.

~*~*~

I’m so sick hiding you..and Making Excuses for you..
This time I have Proof.
Don’t wait til my friend finds out about you and HER.
Discuss it with her before I’m the one who will.
Coz That’ll cause more pain and suffering and not in MY part but in YOURS Ba*&%#$!!
~ROT IN HELL~!

Happy Birthday Dad!

January 15th, 2007 by allyevejeff

Be Warned Mixed Emotions Up Ahead!

It’s 11:14pm!
and it’s almost  midnight so I would just want to take this opportunity to greet my Dad a Happy Birthday even though I’m like an hour advance hihi…
and Happy Advance birthday to my Kuya Reynald!Who has been patient for texting me always even my mobile is Low-batt or I dont have load..haha..it was really nice meeting you!

~*~*~*~*~
Concerning to My social uhm?? Disagreements?or Misunderstanding..(Pick one haha)
(Sorted by:currently)
Glen-Dont be mad at me I’m sorry!I didn’t see you before Vj I wasnt being Biased or something!

Jaianne!-Those socks aren’t your’s darn it you need to control yourself in wearing socks of other people..

Cherry-I understand your mad but I dont understand why? and why you think I’m telling anyone about our disagreement..It’s only our’s right so no one should be involved with it or vice versa..so dont jump into conclusions that I’ve told Darkness and other people..as you can notice I’m giving you your space but that doesn’t mean I never treated you as my Best Friend please remember that..

Lianne-Rachelle has never told me anything about you having a new boyfriend wrong text ka yata remember you texted me?
pero parang ang layo Alyssa sa Michael?
anyway..

So that’s the end of the Plugging part..
~*~*~*~*~

~You know who you are..Just Texted you this morning

Oh and by the way i would deflate my ego if I was you..your head is too big for your body..if you can imagine..har har gudluck on your soo called girl!~

silent night?

December 20th, 2006 by allyevejeff

Silent Night RUINED!!!
haha~!Check it OUT??
Phot0032
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Hate is such a Harsh Word

December 15th, 2006 by allyevejeff

Ha!
Shocking neh?
after what two years you text me?
and expect that will be that close?
waaah…
I hate you ,you know for being insufferable and sarcastic..
but still I’m still here waiting for you to come back with open arms..
to hug and..KILL YOU!! &*$(@*^$(&@$&$ where have you been?
I’m sooo gonna suffocate you!
naghintay pa kami para sayo tapos malalaman namin may barkada ka na dyan!
kala ko ba walang iwanan!
bakit
unfair?
bakit kami..
ako
lang hindi pwedeng magiwan?
pero pag ikaw!

I really hate you for treating us like dirt..
your not worth it naman your hurting us without reason
ikaw lang ang laging topic nang discussion namin!
na nakakasawa na hearing your name with the same lines of "Do you think, okay?…""What are you doing" "is  eating well"
we’re not your parents!
I HATE YOU!
but i know tonight when I know no one is looking when you come back
I’m still here waiting for you to give back what you took from me..
my MONEY!!
wah!!
pano bayan talo ka sa pustahan natin!
galit na din sila sayo!
HAR HAR!
"I hope you get it!"
~You Know You’ll Always Love Me
~har har

December 12th, 2006 by allyevejeff


Nothing to do ..

Mwhahaha..

Just Hanging out!

..

Har Har Har

Before anything else I would just like to say to a certain person:

~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~

hey you weasel!you despicable , low life!
how could you! my god i swear to my grave i’ll kill you! you lame
excuse for a guy!how dare you hurt liesel!naku!!lagot ka talaga sakin
pag nakita kita!!

~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~

okay since that’s over…

HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERY ONE!

and thank you 2006 for the memories you gave me ,Brightest days and to the Darkest Hours!

hahaha!